[willow_wisp]

so i've noticed, with schizophrenia its always like you're being told
either your brain is slowly disintegrating, being locked away and
restrained tortured and expiremented on by mad scientists, or your being
heralded as some kind of intrepid genius savant type or demigod and
going around with extremely powerful magics doing things like saving
the world, healing cancer, bringing about world peace and befriending
bunny rabbit sages, and i was going to say, that its important to take
the middle route, but actually now that i think about it who cares,
that actually does seem to be the way it is, and i feel like i do take
the middle route, all of it heals itself though, its like some kind of
divine spiritual lesson in the end, maybe the middle road is no
different from the high or low roads, because if you take a high road
youll have to take a low road eventually and if you take a low road
the time comes when you'll have to take a high road. I guess
schizophrenia is just gnosticism in the end, if the psychiatrist and
psychologists are just wierd kinds of priests and gatekeepers, and
people on places like this site are kind of like archons and the
hospitals and strange manic journeys that sometimes take us here and
there, those are just the shamanic journeys through other realms where
we do our work in growing as people and learning about the world in
the old ways, which are not so often taught in traditional straight
forward manners anymore. And all of it happens in humble enough of a
way as to seem pretty much normal to everyone else, and still
translate to some degree to the modern world, i think we are probably
the last bastions of the real magical world which are continously
scattered and randomly appearing in every world, but especially Earth
and our job is different and subtle and non linear, we work together
we with universe spirit and others in the unconscious to keep protect
and make the universe a better place through our adventures trails and
tribulations. And psychedelic music is our guide and shining light
through the tunnels of heaven hell earth, and even all the way back to
the first primordial ground Wanti, in within buddhist realms of
nirvana and suffering with messages and good vibes and just good
rockingness to keep everything good, bearable and meaningful in the
end. Thats cool, i think thats been on the tips of our tongues for a
long time, and glad to finally be able to express it now! I don't
think its an illness but a way of life, we are wounded healers, and we
do suffer but its all for a reason for a greater good none of it is in
vain, all of it serves a purpose I believe before we were born all of
us chose this path in our prior incarnation or when we had no
spiritual form because we knew it would be essential to the world,
nature, and all beings though it defies logic that it is so, which is
really the amazing genius of it.

http://www.terebess.hu/english/diamond.html

I really love the metaphors you use & the things that you say. However you need to view things in order to do the right thing for yourself is the key! Just keep strong & doing what you have to to stay on the true path. : )