I have this monkey painting of a monkey all dressed up with hat of fruit on her head, I love her. I put her in my bed room when I thought I saw little people in the house, I felt really safe with her in my room. I also have a stuffed monkey and if I sleep downstairs on the couch I bring the monkey and feel safer.

I was thinking I should put a money in each room because I get scared still sometimes of the little people, specially if I have my back turned to a doorway. Is this bad or wrong to do, or weird. I mean is it playing into the hallucinations to try and protect yourself from them? I don;t have any more monkey so I'd have to go buy them. I am worried about people coming over tho and what they would think too. Anyone else do this. I am seriously considering monkey lamps and more paintings so I dont have a bunch of stuffies around. But I am also worried that I am doing the weak thing

[mgran]

If it helps you, then do it. Let people think what they think. I know people who collect unicorns, or hippopotimi, and they're considered sane. Let people just think you like monkeys... it's true enough, isn't it?

I can't remember if you're on any medication. Have you talked about the little people with your pdoc?

Mgran, thanks that makes me feel better, i don't really like monkey's much, but that's ok right.

I am taking Abilify right now, it's not working that good, I am still have plenty of psychosis. Since May I have been through Thorazine, Seroquel, Zyprexa and now Abilify, none of which giving good results, I'm just holding my breath. I see my Pdoc in two weeks. I did mention the little people briefly. Since I have been seeing bugs in my hair and other unpleasant things and am trying to wait patiently for some relief. Maybe an increase in meds will help. Making me really restless tho, I feel like I always have to be walking.

[mgran]

Restless leg syndrome, oh that's awful. I had that with rispiridone, it kept me awake nights. I'm sorry none of them worked for you yet. I've never had thorazine, but seroquel made a major difference. I've been trying to take the dose down, and am wondering if I made a mistake.

How long did you give the meds time to work? Rispiridone, despite the side effects, took about six weeks, and I started to get my head straight. The side effects were so bad though that I had to switch to seroquel. There was no gap between the two, but seroquel really made a huge difference... took about a month to six weeks again, after two months I was passing for normal, even in my head. I'm not sure you can judge the effectiveness of a med if you don't give it time to reach a helpful level. But some side effects are so bad that you just can't stay on the med. I really hope you get a good one soon.

[wiprwill]

Do what you need to do for your sanity and don't worry about what others think of your monkeys, We all need different coping skills