[Lexicon78]

I thought I'd be ok. I hadn't had any voices for about 2 years or more. It was so nice not hearing men calling my name. That's all they are...just men calling my name. I hate them, really. They're all my abusers calling my name.

Last night as I was laying in bed I heard a man calling my name again! I thought the voices were over with! I've wanted them to stop for so long! Now they're back. The scariest part is that it was my bf's voice calling my name. I was just laying there right beside him trying to sleep...but knew sleep would never come. I was watching the walls, and the clock. The next thing I knew my bf was calling me...not from beside me where he was, but from the livingroom. I wanted to scream, to have my bf hold me tight so that I was being comforted somehow, but there was no relief, no one to hold me, nothing. I had to lay there alone and deal with this on my own.

I don't want to tell my T that the voices have started again. I never want anyone to find out! Why is this starting again? It's been so long and I've enjoyed this so much. I don't want them to start again, but they have.

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

I REALLY hope you tell your T.....it may be a med adjustment is needed or you are way stressed but please tell T....I imagine this must be scary and I am very sorry for this.

[jmo531]

((((((((((((((((Lex))))))))))))))))))

I know how distressing this must be for you. I too would talk to your T. I know its a hard thing to do though. Perhaps added stress (this time of year) is causing some of this. I wish you peace. I am here for you.


Huggles,


Jen

[BlueFaith]

(((Lex)))
I really hope you tell your T! S/he is there to help you through this... but they can't help you if you don't tell them. I'm sure this is scary and disturbing. Please PM me anytime you need to. I'm here for you.

[Beautiful_Pain]

{{{{lexi}}}} I too hope you tell your T, they need this type of info to help you =/