[Beautiful_Pain]

I don't know what to do...am in chat, if anyone is around

[Beautiful_Pain]

Going to go call my husband, again

[Mystry]

i'm here Beautiful Pain...I went into the chat room by mistake and when I came out I tried to get into support but the puter desided to crash...sorry

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Beautiful Pain}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I'm so sorry!!

[hillbunnyb]

Hey BP bumpies yer way )))))BP((((((

[January]

(((((((((((((((((((((((( BP ))))))))))))))))))))))

I wasn't here. Are you all right now? Please let us know. We all care.

Hugs,

Jan

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((((BP)))))))))))))))))))))

kd

[Beautiful_Pain]

Yes, I had two wonderful people come to chat with me... when I called my husband and got voicemail. He called back later and said he was taking the last 1.5 hours off from work. He came home and got me through it ok. Thank you {{{{{{{{all}}}}}}}} }}}}}}}}bunny{{{{{{{{ for your concern.

And thank you {{{{{{{{{{Nina}}}}}}}}}} {{{{{{{{{{Mystry}}}}}}}}}} I could never have made it without you both last night.

BP, so happy to read that you´re feeling better now! Don´t hesitate to PM me any time you feel like venting or just need a "listening ear".

((((((((((((BP)))))))))))))

[Mystry]

Anytime at all...all you gotta do is call...just stay safe Beautiful Pain...

[jmo531]

((((((((((((((((((((((BP))))))))))))))))))))))))

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((((((BP)))))))))))))))))))))))) I am glad you found some support last night. I hope you are feeling better.

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

Sweetie remember when we first met in here you said you just knew you were gonna break..and wanted to clear the holidays before you went to the hospital..I really hope you go now..I kinda fear we cannot help you the way you need to be helped and want you to get well asap

hugs

[Beautiful_Pain]

Yes, I know sleeps...but it isn't being consistent. I almost went in about a week ago, but once I got through that night..I haven't had a problem since. I don't know =/

[Beautiful_Pain]

I guess it wasn't just a once thing...there was another too, I even packed to go...but when I'm not in psychosis, I'm averaging a 60% or higher good. I don't know if psychosis is coming more frequently or ending up lasting longer...its hard to tell, for me.

At the moment, I'm tired and a bit confused about this whole going back to the hospital situ...but feeling alright. Should I really be thinking of hospital if, like, now I'm not feeling the need for hospitalization? I don't know...

I haven't unpacked completely from the last time I almost went in, but my husband tries everything to keep me from going back. Having my sister come over...going to work with him...periodic calling when I'm feeling bad...coming home from work when I'm in psychosis because he knows that when he's here, he can calm me down enough to get through the psychosis safely.

I just don't know what to do or think

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

Sorry all this is happening to you. I know its hard but if meds and a T do not work...then what else??? OR have you and hubby talked about a day program? That way you can be home at night but helped by day?? I do not know what hubby does for a living but how long can you go to work and all...It seems maybe artial would/could work for you....Think on it OK??

hUGS

[Beautiful_Pain]

I don't have a t, currently. There is no close-by day program, the closest is 1.5 hours away and I can't drive, and have no other way to get there.

Thank you for your suggestions {{{{sleeps}}}}}

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

Youre welcome and maybe check out more private places for partial...You need a T and or PDOC please get one asap or faster cause this is an endless circle for you and I feel like its HOPE for you (( bp ))

[wizzard]

Hello I don't know how much help I can be because I have schizophrenia myself but I'd like a chance to get to know you and who knows maybe we can help each other with this terrible afliction, what do ya say? Will you take the first step and email me? wizzard77@gmail.com

[Beautiful_Pain]

Hi wizzard =) Thank you for taking the first step. Just a bit of background about me: My diagnoses is schizo-affective disorder, been diagnosed since Oct 05...but heard voices since I was 11 and been depressed since I was 13. I've covered it and done a pretty fair job as no one knew about it for quite awhile (I'm 30 now). I recently went to a mental health unit as an inpatient for 5 days, last week.

I'm not sure that I'm completely comfortable emailing you right now though, sorry to say. If you don't mind, I would rather use the private message feature here. =)