[newtus]

i goto a store to buy wine. im cleary over 21.
i give them my license and everything. and everything is cool.

i get followed by this guy because SOMETHING made the alarms go off when i went in AND out of the store. i dont even know why. maybe because my library books? or someone implanted something in my bag, i bet.

i get to the checkout.
and this guy, (the one that wasnt following me, a new one) comes up out of nowhere and stands really close to me. bumps into me THREE times against my bag.

guess what: HE DID THIS ON PURPOSE. AND STOOD RIGHT UP BEHIND ME ON PURPOSE.

i was going to say something. but im glad i didnt. i've been thinking about this nonstop for hours since it happened.

i was going to ask him is he's the one thats been following me. and spying on me.
i figured out why he bumped into me. part of it was because the alarms.

this is why: he is a private investigator. he was feeling up for a gun. he thought i was gonna gun the store. i realized he DROPPED (purposely) a cam & mic into my bag before i walked out of the store today. i get home and my new song is on and i turned off EVERYTHING before i went to the store. PLUS im hearing banging on my the sides of house since ive been home. i havent been hearing the banging since i got home nonstop. for the first time since 4-6 months ago. do they know john lennon and his attempt to send SOS morse code to ME? why ME?

his WHOLE attire reeked of covert operation. plus he NEVER came out of the store. PLUS he had basic items. i mean, really? im not EFFING stupid.

i figured this out on my own. this really scared and surprised me. im still scared.
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this ties into i started yelling at my dad and screaming "who are you?" lately because im thinking he's not really my dad. im really scared. some days he's here and some not. i know which man is him and which man theyve been switching out for him. why would he do this to me?

i JUST downloaded a week ago strawberry fields forever and hearing my name being called in it. the beatles, john lennon singing. and now im questioning is it 1964 right now actually? look what happened to Jean Seberg in 1967. google it. her run-in with J.Edgar Hoover. he indirectly murdered her and her unborn child. seriously. youll see why.

john lennon is sending the SOS morse code to me. LISTEN TO THE SONG. LISTEN TO IT. im not ranting. im telling.

the guy thought i had a weapon i bet? why? ive been so on edge lately.

[Aslan]

liked the story and yeah its a great song.
sounds like your under alot of pressure at moment.

[newtus]

its not a story?
i just went through this today. been going through a series of these things every time i go out into public.

:/

[lil-angel-wings]

im sorry this is happening to you

i have a really hard time ignoring them when they start following me

i try to just say "What ever, I have nothing to hide"

and I try hard not to have bad thoughts because I know that they can tell what Im thinking

hope your okay today

[newtus]

thats good to do
but i really think this guy was investigating me for a gun or something which leads into other things, he was ACTUALLY trying to implant it on me.
like profiling...idk. i was wearing all black.
black shoes, black socks, black pants, black shirt, black denim jacket = daily attire
im not gothic though? so i dont know. i have dark brown hair but since i never wash it, its a shiny black, oily look. long.

[lil-angel-wings]

theres alway that possibility

i work in retail
its amazing what relly goes on that people wouldn't belive if you told them
even with employees

[mgran]

Newtus, I care about you, and I know that you're going to be very angry with me. I understand the kind of thinking and perceptions you're having at the moment.

But it's not Nineteen sixtyfive. John Lennon is not sending you Morse Code messages, he's dead. Your Dad is not switching himself with someone else, he's not trying to pull a fast one on you.

Regarding the surveillance and being followed, I can't speak to that. The guy could have been a store detective, I know they can be pretty intrusive. It freaks me out when things beep for no reason... maybe that's why he came up to check on you. I'm really sorry you had to put up with that. And the banging from next door too.

But you can trust your Dad, of that I'm sure. My son has sometimes had the same fear about me not being me... this belief in a substitute for someone you love is a condition that can be caused by stress. It certainly sounds like you have a lot of stress in your life right now.

[newtus]

ive contacted the police and one major news media corp about this. about the surveillance of me, really.

i was able to get on TV for it but got part of my bit cut out about myself. i went through and said my perspective on their story and said my thing about my own thing.

suspicion draws when stuff like that happens. they cut you out, ignore you. and the police said no one was there when i called on 5-6 people last year banging on my door at another location saying THREE phrases: "were gonna get you", "we know you're in there", and "we see you". i was trapped on the third floor of a building at midnight. with only one way out and it was into the arms of people who wouldve probably killed me! the police treated me like im ****ing insane! "well...uh..we dont see anyone out here. give us a call back if it persists". HOW DO YOU NOT SEE 5-6 THAT ARE YELLING?! and my question also is how does no one else? i dont trust police after that. started taking my own action.

i think im under a lot of stress idk. i usually always push it back so i dont actually realize the amount. but i do know ive been getting very bad migraines everyday for 2-3 weeks now. im trying to go back to college after my last one kicked me out because i exposed this schools world of corruption on public brains and basically wasnt going to be another one of their guinea pigs for society.
my application was accepted but i havent even started and these people are eyeing me and ill be watching them if they happen to want to kick me out. ill expose them too. they cant rewrite history on me! my history is MY own and the past is here. art makes the past look old. look at a picture of something in 1940. black and white it may be. but the grass in the picture, the car, the people. they werent black and white, i mean you know? the grass was green not a shade of gray. we are being fooled into thinking the world was black and white and shades of gray. and they fooled us into thinking the 1970s was too yellow and other decades as well.

im taking History too. they cant fool me. ill stand up for myself.

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[newtus]

listen to strawberry fields forever. and thing is, my dad had an alcohol level of near .5 this september. he went to the hospital "almost died". i mean they rushed me out and he was dying, but then he's ok all of a sudden? you dont go from being almost dead to ok in a few sec? thing is, i wonder if the switched happened at the hospital like when a baby is born and they swoop them away and all of sudden they see them again?

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[newtus]

there are parallels from 1964 into the future, say 2012.

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[RunningEagleRuns]

Do you take meds at all?

[newtus]

no i do not actually
i do have evidence to support my being watched/followed though
what i mentioned is my evidence.
i do have paper and electronic evidence but they have been stolen
i had them in my possession and one day they were gone.
i do not know where
maybe someone stole and burn it?
do not know, but i dont have it in my possession anymore.

[theGirlNextDorm]

Newtus, if you are afraid, you do not need to be. As far as I can tell, no one is trying to hurt you. Maybe if you stop to think and check your bag, you will see that no one has implanted any device into your things.
If you're stressed out, take some time to relax. Think about the people who care about you, and maybe if a T could help.

[newtus]

man....if you only understood how complex this is.

that man was only a component.

ive been sent SOS messages continuously from songs & movies.

PS. its like the PANIC ROOM. i KNOW whats going on and i DESPERATELY need to tell the outside world but if i do, I DIE AND THEY WILL KILL MY FAMILY.

not only did i check my bag. theres barely anything in it. wallet, keys, gum.

i see a therapist. i dont know what she thinks but she refuses to acknowledge my distress. i know where she lives.

[mgran]

I'm still sure that your Dad is your real Dad. Regarding people nearly dying in hospital, then recovering, it's a lot more common than you'd think. That's why they have trained crash teams turn up when someone is "coding" (ie, when they are near death.) The trained team know what to do to save the person. This is what happened with your father. He was lucky to be in hospital. Can you imagine how sad he'd be if he thought you didn't believe in him? Don't let the anxiety and fear you're enduring get between you and your Dad. If someone was after you, don't you think they'd want you to stop trusting your nearest and dearest? Don't let that negativity win.

[newtus]

yes....GOOD POINT
...and theres many people that would...
HM. and the people that WOULD, I SUSPECTED THEM.
gosh darn thats one of the BEST points ive heard in days, maybe even weeks...

i KNOW my dads on my side. but some days he is not my dad, at all. i know this. when the guy switches out, he isnt on my side. and i fear ill have to bash him over the head with something one day.

ive been in contact with a major news media corp already though.

[mgran]

Don't bash him over the head, you could end up hurting your Dad for real, and you could end up in prison, or in hospital against your will.

The news are never interested in this kind of thing... I remember when everybody laughed at the "conspiracy nutters" who believed in the Bilderberg group... well, now the information is out there, and people STILL aren't interested. I know things that if I keep to myself because the best response I'd get would be mockery, and the more serious end of things I could end up losing what reputation I have left, and being considered seriously mentally unstable.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bilderberg_Group

That's not very deep information, but just to show you the tip of the iceberg.

[newtus]

....SOS

there is someone in my online class...
Juliet Whiskey...
Juliet Whiskey...

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

Mgran, I just looked up the Bilderburg Group and not to rub sand in a raw wound but Rick Perry (presidential candidate) is on the list if you go here
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_Bilderberg_participants , for members of the group. That's a bit scary... Last thing we need... Eck... Politics make me sick

[newtus]

Originally Posted by PurpleFlyingMonkeys

I just looked up the Bilderburg Group and not to rub sand in a raw wound but Rick Perry (presidential candidate) is on the list if you go here

so is diane sawyer.
i dont push so much emphasis on some of them but mostly those are who in the public eye AND are news hosts. but diane sawyer, always comes to my mind first. for some reason. i think because when i was younger and didnt know much i thought diane sawyer was a good host in terms of humanity. she is not.

barbara walters is on the trilateral commission, as well. or i couldve switched the names. thing is. they both are a part of one of those groups, each.

[PurpleFlyingMonkeys]

They really can't expect people not to have these "conspiracy theories" when they are always proving these theories to be accurate. How can anyone feel safe in this country with the way things are now? It's sad that this "occupy" group made such a bad name because really, they were fighting a good cause, they just went about it horribly. Now it's a joke to bring up their fighting points. I guess that's what some people wanted so who's to say the occupy group weren't with the rest of the world trying to make the "lower classes" look unorganized and more psychotic than educated. Even if not, whomever started and continued this occupy thing did more bad than good. Now there doesn't seem to be much hope, give in and let the "well off" take over, see what America becomes next. But it seems these economic traditions never stop, always the man who already has it all wants even more. Typical

[mgran]

It's scary, isn't it? I think groups like this have more power than elected societies, etc. I've heard all sorts of conspiracy stories about the EU and UN, but they're out in the open. I think the guys to worry about are the guys who eschew public politics. Bad enough when politicians are members of these groups... it gets scarier when it's a business mogul or an arms dealer.

[newtus]

its just that, all these people work together in some fashion. either physically, contemplating things one on one or in a group OR systematically, from afar with hand gestures, eye blinks, and so on. Think, the freemasons. the position they stood in in their photos represented their postion on the hierarchy of masonry.

[costello]

Originally Posted by PurpleFlyingMonkeys

They really can't expect people not to have these "conspiracy theories" when they are always proving these theories to be accurate.

I don't subscribe any conspiracy theories. I feel a bit left out. My son is fascinated by something called the Illuminati. Maybe I can claim that one?

I have a confession, and I hope it doesn't get me drummed out of the club, but I literally can't listen to or read about conspiracy theory stuff. Literally. My eyes glaze over and, no matter how hard I try, I cannot make my attention stay on the topic. It bores me worse than a lecture on economics, and economics is like a sleeping pill for me.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by costello

I literally can't listen to or read about conspiracy theory stuff. Literally. My eyes glaze over and, no matter how hard I try, I cannot make my attention stay on the topic. It bores me worse than a lecture on economics, and economics is like a sleeping pill for me.

interesting you say that.
i used to be the same. and the same with philosophy.
it was coming to all dead ends about finding the abstract answer to the world that got me to stick with reading it.