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They want my soul the spies ...they want my husband as well
i cant fight them off ...no weapons
Nothing to fight them off with Andrew took them away
thats what there really here for is my soul...when they abused me they where after it trying to make me dark and soulless...
They are coming for me ...
Ella

your soul. is that your personality and beliefs? i've never known, maybe I'm without a soul. I hope Ella can protect her soul

I hope Ella can protect Andrew.

maybe the spies are on break.

brookwest

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No they are the spies there still here ...waiting for me to become dark and soulless...they know am looking at the other religions that am between them at the moment ...they know they can take my soul at this point because i dont believe in anything sold at the moment am between Christianity and Wicca and i dont know witch one to decide on...so am stuck in the middle until i choose one or the other...

The spies are still here there never gone always here

Ella

maybe instead of choosing, let a religion choose you.

brookwest

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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Christi...nd_Neopaganism

I found this link on Christianity and Neopaganism...looks interesting

Ella

neo-paganism, new pagan religion?

are you sure the "pagans" have gone anywhere? if they haven't, there is no need for "neo-paganism."

isn't "pagan" latin for, "of the country" like, an unsophisticated farmer?

i have had to cope with the bullies of the "religion" since like, FOREVER.

Being scared will arose them.

don't allow fear into your heart.

we have police protecting people of all faiths.

may the four seasons mix with the four paths.

may your way be

in your view. the sun
the moon

the smaller lights everywhere in the darkness between the light.

you are protected.

omein...

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They are sitting waiting for me to make my next move ...maybe they wont do anything until then ...or maybe am kidding my self that there waiting ...they about to take away the only good thing in my life and i cant let them do that ...need to fight need to make sure i get everything right ...they want blood and its most likely mine...am not safe ...never safe...
Ella

if you trust me Ella (holding hand) what is that "good thing" in your life?

It must be sooo very precious.

It must mean to you more than it means to others?

I'll bet it is awesome

are you OK?

brookwest

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Its Andrew my husband that means everything to me...id be lost with out him
They want to take him from me to make me soulless
i don't know if am OK
i don't feel safe at all

Ella

it is OK to not be OK

don't be scared

breathe deep, maybe, if Ella feel safe, Ella can have snack, like fruit, something healthy.

I've heard about the poisen. if there is safe water, drink safe water.

where is Andrew?

Brookwest

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He is in the other room playing his x box he knows am scared he told me not to be ...that the spies aren't there and that i should sleep ...i tried to sleep took all my meds and still cant sleep...

Ella

I'm sorry you can't sleep Ella. I can't sleep much either.

my voices hate me. i listen to them when i try to sleep.

they hate me.

i hope the meds you took were the right amount?

the amount the dr said?

I am right?

brookwest

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yes it was the right amount Andrew makes sure we take the right amount and he hides the rest of them from me so we dont OD on them...listening to music is meant to help with voices i have headphones and turn it up really loud it helps
but i can still see them...hard to ignore hard not to feel scared
they can strike any moment
Ella

I've listened to music that way before.

I guess to drown out voices in my head.

I began having daymares.

I hesitate before listening to music to drown out voices again.

I don't want daymares.

A mare is a horse, wild horse?

I like cat stevens. his music is soothing and doesn't give me daymares.

I like classical. especially classical guitar.

I like jazz also. Rock and roll is good for a kick, I guess.

glad Ella good.

brookwest

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They are attacking again ... they are going to take my soul away ...take Andrew away
I need to do something now before its too late

Ella

((Ella))

Andrew sounds capable of protecting himself.

Breathe deeply... Try to think of something pleasant from your past.

brookwest

Ella,

Andrew sounds capable of protecting himself.

Breath deep.. Think of a pleasant memory from your past.

brookwest

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We just got a phone call from the mental health emergency team .
There coming to see me tomorrow at 10 am
They want to talk about things.
Need to tell them that the spies want my soul and that they are watching me all the time.
This morning we didnt have my soul we had to fight them to get it back
got it back now ...but they could take it again ...we have to be careful
Ella

I hope the mental health team is friendly. They have been friendly to me.

How is Andrew? Is he well?

I would be honest with the mental health team.

I don't believe you need to be afraid of them.

Don't allow yourself to panic.

breathe deep.

think of pleasant memories, maybe Andrew.

Brookwest

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Andrew is fine he was at my mothers for most of today ...he isnt back yet but he should be back any minute ...the mental health team want to see me for some reason ...they called me not me call them...its just kinda strange ...Andrews back now
Thanks
Ella

[pachyderm]

Originally Posted by XSeleneX

This morning we didnt have my soul we had to fight them to get it back
got it back now ...but they could take it again ...we have to be careful
Ella

This sounds to me as though it could be a form of dissociation. It is a well-known property of the mind that in the face of overwhelming distress, where one can find no other way of coping, the mind can virtually shut down, "go away". It is a way for the mind to protect itself from further collapse. It can feel as though your very soul, your very person, is gone. But it is a temporary thing -- once you are in a safe place your mind can stop "going away". If it were really your soul, once "someone" takes it away you could never get it back again. But that is not the way it is.

If you see mental health people, you need to find ones who understand this kind of dissociation, and how it can result from overwhelming stress. Not every mental health professional knows about this. Some will not understand and will just want to stop you from saying things like this, while others who do understand how this happens can listen to you.