Overwhelming

Hi all! Found and became a member of psych central last night. I must say there is an overwhelming amount of information on this site. That is one of the things that drew me to the site. Knowledge is power and one can never know enough. I strive to learn something new each and every day. I don't really know where to start, way to much information racing through my mind. I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. I have had auditory hallucinations on occasion. I don't have many voices just one, and she calls herself Alex. Alex when around is extremely persistent. Always reminding me I will never be cured just covering up symptoms. Also she tries to convince me to just give up. I am very curious if others have just one voice? I have never known anyone else with this disorder. I basically keep to myself. I don't like or particularly enjoy being around others. I would really like to be able to others who understand what I'm going through.

Amazing isn't it! I have loved being here too! I have learned a lot and met many wonderful and smart and helpful people. Each one is a unique masterpiece and I am so happy to meet you my friend. Yours truly, Lightbulb7

Welcome, Cherry.

welcome to PC

welcome aboard. i was also recently diagnosed as schizoaffective (but depressive subtype). i don't really hear voices but i get a lot of what i call noise in my head. i have more visual hallucinations than anything, and sometimes they are highly detailed with sounds and smells and whatnot. i have an assortment of paranoid delusions as well, and Shadows I see that stick thoughts in my head. like you, i've never known anyone else with this disorder except for those on psych central's forums.

anyway i hope you enjoy your time here. there are a lot of helpful people on the forums so don't be afraid to ask questions.

Welcome to PC! As for the one voice, there are others that hear a single voice. I hear several however but they are not constant, just a few times a day. I even have a funny one called the "Random Phrase Guy" who just says the most random things in history. I am also schizoaffective bipolar type. There are people on here that have schizoaffective. Also, I have a personal friend that has the disorder. If you have questions, ask away.

I only had one voice. Medication has taken it away though. It never named itself so I just called it "my mind". It basically did a running commentary on my life, and asked me questions, tried to make me focus on all my bad symptoms and the visual hallucinations I was having. Constantly pushed me to feel enjoyment from my innermost evil desires and fantasies. I had a hard time concentrating because it was always trying to distract me and keep me slightly delusional.

I don't have a single voice but I don't have any continuious voices, either. My major auditory hallucination was a ringing phone. I haven't heard it in a long time. I occasionally hear random voices. Sometimes it's laughing. Sometimes words, but far away. Except once I had a voice sneak up on me and whisper "Hey!" really loud into my left ear while I was showering. I screamed. (it was a man's voice.) Haven't heard it since...

Hi Cherry!

*Willow*

Hi...welcome.

I have a heard. lol. One is a random phrase type of thing that is just freaking ridiculous at times. No names. They torment and they comfort. I try to not focus on them though. Headphones, walks, focusing on my dogs..etc.

Thanks for the welcome everyone. I also hear things mostly I think someone is knocking on my door, or a phone ringing. Doesn't really bother me anymore. Glad to learn their are others like me that I can talk too.

Hello Cherry73,

Welcome to PC and I hope you will find what you need here!

i want to say something but do not know what to say. no matter what I say it won't be the right thing so I will stay quiet. glad you were able to take the step to find support. i cant always say i am not well, but deep inside i know there is a need to find someone who will listen and by listening to others i might find hope. finally seeing that what i experience is not healthy, but enjoyable to me, is a giant leap into the unknown...perhaps we can share the experience? (my daughter is recently diagnosed OCD and she is 13 and wanted help so I took her to the psych/therapist and we are getting help together.)

in answer to your question, i didn't realize i had voices until i started talk therapy with a super great person who listens and makes me feel so much better about myself and what I have struggled with for so long but never knew i was suffering, although sometimes what Im experiencing is quite trippy! Sometimes, like now, I get in this hypersexual mood, hence my feeling flirty, but it scares me too because i was raped the summer of my high school graduation and im beginning to think i might have been in this kind of mood im in right now and so even though i am in a super sexual mood, and i think someone at work is flirting with me, which he probably is, and i have been responding back, and i know my husband doesn't deserve my xxxx but, even though i know i am experiencing this i don't want it to end because i have been in those moods where i feel like xxxx and cant move, dont want to move, etc....anyhow i have a new friend who visits me at work and she hates me but im trying to make her see that i didn't abondon her, i just left her because i had to. so yeah, i have more than one voice! none of them try and hurt me anymore because i am able to take control knowing that i am paving my road and not someone else.

Welcome Cherry. This is a good place to be.