[RunningEagleRuns]

I am now 18 so I hear it would be very difficult for him to ship me off to a hospital.. But I dunno.. I sort of need someone to talk to about it. But I'm afraid he'd try to get my into a hospital, and I hate those places. HELP?

I already tell him about some of them, but I don't get into it that much. I need to tell someone about all of it..

[Miss Laura]

Hey RunningEagleRuns

Big old fat YES!!! Suicidal thoughts if left unmentioned can and will get worse. You need to keep yourself safe ok!

[Trippin2.0]

The fact that you WANT to talk to someone, makes it a yes, hands down...

Thoughts practiced over and over, can become strong. It is as if each thought is a seed. Your life is the beautiful field. Your life is a fertile ground indeed. Each thought you have, or "seed", has the potential to take root. The more "seeds" you have fall upon your "field", (life) the greater chance that they will actually take root. Never fear! You have recognized these seeds before they have had a chance to sprout! You must undig these seeds from your field, and they most certainly will not grow and become strong. These seeds will only accomplish destruction in your field. Your field is beautiful. Pluck those weeds out! Then your beauty will be free to flourish. I believe in you! You can do it! Sincerely, Glinda Gail

Sorry that you're feeling bad RER

Unless you are an immediate danger to yourself or another, then they have no justification to admit you. You could preface the discussion by saying that you have no desire to act on these thoughts in the near future/at all (if that's true) so T won't freak out. Sometimes it really helps to get these out. It's as if the thoughts lose their power once they're out in the open. Talk to T!

*Willow*

[Gr3tta]

i understand your hesitancy. but they really have heard it all, it won't shock them, and you're right: you do need to be able to talk to someone about it. they won't stick you in the hospital just for talking about it.

[faerie_moon_x]

Originally Posted by RunningEagleRuns

I am now 18 so I hear it would be very difficult for him to ship me off to a hospital.. But I dunno.. I sort of need someone to talk to about it. But I'm afraid he'd try to get my into a hospital, and I hate those places. HELP?

I already tell him about some of them, but I don't get into it that much. I need to tell someone about all of it..

Telling someone you have suicidal thoughts doesn't always equal a trip to the hospital. I've told therapists about suicidal thoughts before.

The big question they are going to ask you is if you have a plan. If you have a plan that's a very bad thing. That is when you absolutely need to tell and get the help you deserve. Because you deserve help, and you deserve to be well. Your T is a good person to tell because they are trained to help you.

Remember, suicidal thoughts are all lies. They are temporary and will go away. It is a battle worth fighting, and getting yourself an ally will be very helpful for you.

They won't necessarily freak out if you tell them you have a plan either. I've had a plan for ages and my pdoc couldn't care less. It's only when I decide to act on my plan and start taking steps to do it that they would cart me off to the hospital, if they knew.

Have you talked to T yet RER? If so, how did they react?

*Willow*

[sorter]

I voted no only because there's no option for it depends.

Frankly, suicidal thoughts are relatively frequent for 18 year olds and they're usually not as serious as someone in later life.
A hospital would likely just give you meds and that could make things worse.

Although, maybe your are serious and maybe you need meds. You need to
make that judgement. Although I'm guessing your instinct about hospitals is a good one.

Perhaps you could ask your therapist, hypothetically, if he/she would send you to a hospital against your will. In some states they can. If your therapist
doesn't give a definite direct answer, find a different therapist.

[fishsandwich]

Hello. Sorry for disappearing. I had to move out of my old place and then spent a month living in a hostel without internet. Now I'm in a hostel with internet. Moving up in the world, you see.

(Yeah, my barrister's wig is here beside me in my twelve-bed pay as you go dorm. Irony.)

[likewater]

It definitely helps to talk to your T. I did and it got me more help . It's always better to not hace to go it alone. And staying alive is actually good. hugs to you.

[costello]

Hope you're doing okay, RER.

[RunningEagleRuns]

im doing good costello.

[likewater]

oh, i had a typo. i meant it's always good to not have to go it alone.sorry you have suicidal thoughts. that can be really lonely and scary. the world is sure better with you in it, Running Eagle Runs!

[RunningEagleRuns]

I sorta told him. It went well. sometimes it seems like the only people who care are you guys.

cuz i get mean voices from everyone

I know how that is brother <3 We all do.

[RunningEagleRuns]

Originally Posted by lightbulb7

I know how that is brother <3 We all do.

haha thanks.. i think there is a difference between wanting to die and wanting to kill yourself. i want to die, but i dont want to kill myself. im very suicidal but i cant do it. whatever

Originally Posted by RunningEagleRuns

i think there is a difference between wanting to die and wanting to kill yourself. i want to die, but i dont want to kill myself. im very suicidal but i cant do it. whatever

I definitely agree that there's a difference between wanting to die and wanting to kill yourself. Both totally suck though! I hope you feel better soon.

*Willow*

[likewater]

tell your T. you'll feel better. i always do.