New to Site and Scared as Heck!

Hi Everyone!
I'm new to this forum and just need some people to talk to. So tired of talking to people who don't understand me. I have a single voice that tells me to hurt myself and my family and recently I've been having hallucinations of cutting myself mainly with cans. I know weird right? So everytime I cook the cans have to be thrown out of the house but the visions are still there. I can't get them out of my head. My shrink has given me some meds to help, and yes they are calming down the noise but the cutting is still in my head. HELP! I feel so alone because my no one understands me and everyone just wants to "fix" me. I just want to talk and vent but I can't. Hopefully here maybe I can. Thanks!

You will definitely find people here who will listen and support you, not to mention welcome you with open arms. No one here will judge you for your experiences. I wish I could offer you some words of wisdom but I'm coming up blank right now, but I know plenty of other people will have things to share! <3

Welcome to the forum, need2heal.

During my breakdown I thought about cutting myself, and I don't know why. It was quite disturbing. One time I was in a hospital the staff seemed to think this was a problem for the mentally ill in general too, so maybe it is a phenomenon that is known about. Maybe you can find some useful information about it. The only thing I can think of is that it signifies some kind of frustration, some blockage of emotion that you just want to get rid of somehow, and it feels as though you could go out of control and get cut.

I still think about it sometimes, but it is not so disturbing as it once was.

Hi, welcome to PC!

I have some SI issues. I've only cut once, I'm a hitter/pincher/biter... anyway, it's very difficult to deal with. I think it's one of the hardest issues I face actually, because when it happens it's like an explosion and I do not like that part of me at all.. I think it's one of the hardest things to battle against, because usually in that place I am completely rocked by whatever is happening and I lose my grip on myself.

For me it happens when I'm having what i call an "episode." That's when I'm totally overwhelmed and just errupting emotions and I don't know how to stop at those times. So, I try to have other things in place to stop it. I also have intrusive thoughts of hurting myself in much worse ways. I hate them! But, it's more like you say where you just think it but not act. In those cases, I try to calm myself down with breathing exercise and distractions.

I understand not having anyone that understands. I had that for a very long time and now I have very few people to talk to who understand or will even listen. That's the worst part of having mental illness is so many people disregard it, and they shouldn't.

Hi Need2Heal Welcome to PC

*Willow*

I have a hard time resisting cutting as well, and hallucinations made it way worse. Thankfully meds made those go away, but it is still hard.

I only had one voice as well, but it never told me to hurt myself, it wanted me to do things to others.

good luck. this site helps.

Welcome need2heal. This is a great place to vent.