I guess this is where I should belong.

It was obvious the first time I ever logged onto this website.

I wasn't trusting humans at first, then again, I haven't at all.

Archangel Raphael told me, "It's okay to admit that you have a mental illness." Well, it is to the humans, a mental illness.

It is still a mental illness to the Angels as well, however it's all a form of demonic posession.

Mariah is the leader of her group and they constantly give me commands to do horrid things, not considered "normal" to humanity.

And so my mom thinks I'm lieing and that I'm doing this all for a show, when it is actual reality.

The medicine given by doctors are in the field of psychology is an occult practice. They are meant to scam you, draining all of your money. They say, "This should make you feel better. The medicine should be working."

It never did work for me. They always give me new medications and bump up dosages to make my so-called life "regular".

The medicine would have worked by now if it were a true mental illness. I can hear and talk to Demons as well as the Archangels, Michael and Raphael. It's a gift rather than being mentally ill.

Psychiatrists are wasting their time trying to make me normal, but at least their being paid by Utah's state government (Utah pays for my medical isurances due to a crime I was involved) for their fraudery.

Well, both sides are saying it's a mental illness, but all that matters to me the most is being healed and comforted by the Angels.

Raphael has always been there ever since I was a little girl.

Michael decided that I needed his help in getting rid of Mariah.

So, I admit I am Schizophrenic.
And this is the forum I belong to the most.

[newtus]

so u admit now?

Yes, I do admit, and I feel like a hypocrite for having a certain dislike for people with Schizophrenia (except for a few that I do have as a friend), which does not make any sense, especially when I have the same exact match of problems compared to them.

I am as much as a human being to them as they are to anyone else, so it makes sense.

Why not socialize with people that have problems in common with me? It sounds better than trying to fit into a random forum that doesn't solve my personality.

[unaluna]

This is my home.

[newtus]

yea makes sense. i used to hate people with mental illness especially ones like mine but cause i was embarrassed by my own issues.

It was because I thought Schizophrenics were so difficult to socialize with, and that their behavior was so out of control, but it is not their fault.

It is not our faults, and we should not be treated any differently than anyone else that is not like us.

[faerie_moon_x]

Hi welcome.

It's not wrong to have a community and hopefully you can work towards your healing here, whatever that means for you. I think that's the most important part, is to be healed so that you can live a life that is comfortable for you and not necessarily what everyone deems to be "normal." There is no "normal" anyway.

Thanks for sharing that yall. I too had felt the same. It is a kind of self-hating behaviour that seems to make sense at first, until a deeper understanding of the scope of the circumstances is established. I had tried to separate myself from others like me as well. It's much better on the acceptance side of things, but no one can rush that stage by any means. Welcome my friend. You are not alone.