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Just told my parents I'm quitting with the nurse and Dr, they said I'll never get better, nothing to get better from.
They think I've been acting weird all week.

(((Kureha)))

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I know it's real, god knows it is, but he knows he can't save me.

No one believes I have a hard time with - because it isn't real to anyone else.
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I told my T when she questioned me about ..."Well now that your on meds and doing oky can yousee that tose things were not really happening like you thought and that it was just part of your illness?'

I looked at her and said in a very firm voice..." They are and were as real as the hand on the end of your arm. And there is nothing you or anyone else can ever do or say that will confinse me other wise."

That is why I dont talk about it to them... They do not believe me and I know that if I start telling them they will do like they always do and lock me up.... The first thing my T asks me each time we have a session is " Do you need to go to the hospital? " So I just act like I am fine...

But inside Im screaming at the top of my lungs cause I am so afraid...

So often we believe our dreams are dead. Our lives are over because of the pain we suffer mentaly. There seems to be nothing left in our world to live for. Everything appears to be against us. No one believes anything we know to be real and true to be that.

During these times, God is doing His deepest behind-the-scenes work. During these times, God is performing a deeper work in each of us and the lives of those around us -- a work that cannot be seen.

If we can just hold on a little while longer, He sill eventually show His light in the darkness... When Jesus calls us to the other side of the rivers that come infront of us...we can know with full assurance taht with him we wil get to teh other side no matter what storms we face along the trip across.

Hang in there... I'll ride along with you even when the waves engulf the boat and you think your going to drowned... I can not swim for you but I will be there to help you if you need it.

I told my psychologist a lot, she's really nice though, I don't see her now though.

I'm going to cancel tomorrow, once you cancel you can't go back though, but they can't help me.

I wanted to keep it - I wanted to get to uni, I wanted to make my parents happy, I wanted to make my expsychologist happy and show she didn't waste her time.

I've seen people here act like - why the **** are you going - shown in this thread - that sets off what came with the OCD.

I was talking about 1st page - but it's that - I'm so stupid sometimes, it's 1 of them - Newtus will understand - because it's the people we have to be aware of.

Why wouldn't they be on here.

It's the same thing over - its what started with the nurse, just with different people.

Really I should remember my ex psychologist and listen to what she said.

I agree. Wish you could still see her. What do you think she'd advise you to do now?

I know she would say to start the meds again and not quit seeing the nurse and Dr, she told me when I still seeing her not to quit.

I wish I could see her, she's still away though.
I trusted her with my life and she didn't let me die, she's the person I should listen too.

From what you've said of her, I think you're right about what her advice would be. You know you can trust her. Why don't you take this advice?

I will, I won't cancel.
I think because I was stressed, the OCD was more there - I was obsessing.

I checked DD can't find anything about it being fake either.
I was obsessing about nothing.