please help.

even though i dont want tha haldol i been taking it!
i dont understand - i feel WORSE. mentally. i think.
two meds made me worse ever.
latuda and now haldol. but this is the first time haldol made me feel wose.
ive taken it b4. latuda didnt make me feel bad til a week into it.

is it really me? or do antipsychotics maybe can cause reverse psychosis?
i dont understand...
ever since i taken this for 3 days - - - its like the voices are clearer. the paranoia is ...just...so idk how to explain. paranoia not has changed but its just..more convincing.i mean the DAILY stuff is more convincg.. so are the voices. the longer im on haldol the more i feel less schiz and more like im a super psychic ESP.
i have contemplate converting to judaism or starting my own religion.

the voices are telling me things i havent heard since is age 20. a few months before i turn 20 i had a major psychotic break. i became extremely religous and had many encounters with God 1n1. i could see mathematical equations in the air. and i see something like them NOW!!!
visuals hallucaintions are RAMPANT right now. where i might see a bug every once and awhile or a shadow hiding behind tree >>>INSTEAD I SEE a dozen bugs everywhere sometimes and i walk outside i see a shadow at every tree in FRONT OF ME!!!

ive been crying everynight. and crying about the littlest things that i rarely cry about. n big things.

i cant understand really whats going on. i feel like ive sleeping a lot lately. i really do. but my father says im rarely sleeping. IDK I CANT EVEN TELL. i know ive rarely been eating past week or two.

Tell you doctor what you are experiencing. The meds might not be right for you.

Gentle Hug to you

The latuda made me feel worse too. It could be td does it feel like that? It could be other side effects of haldol. I would talk to your doctor.

I hope u feel better.

Hi newtus: I'm sorry the hear you're having such a hard time and that the hallucinations are worse and you've been crying a lot.

I can't remember ever hearing that, but I suppose it's possible.

Three days isn't very long. Things may improve with time. Are you taking the same dose you've taken before? Higher? Lower?

It's interesting that your dad and you have different impressions of how much you're sleeping. Is he still working two jobs?

You say you've been taking the Haldol for 3 days and not eating much for the past week or two? I'm not sure if Haldol helps with appetite, but if it does, it may need more time.

It doesn't sound as if the medication is helping much at this point. I know you're not a big fan of pdocs, but can you try to tell him what's going on with you? I wonder if a different medication would be a good idea. Have you tried any other APs? Do you have some kind of health insurance at this point or are you paying cash for the meds? Is that why he's prescribing the older AP?

Have you ever tried Zyprexa?

I remember being on haldol, it did make everything intensify for me as well and u need to keep an eye on ur body's reaction to it if it's already this bad...I had to be taken off of it cuz it was killing me...best advise is to give it the week or so to kick in and if nothing gets better you need to tell ur doctor. Don't hesitate either. I wish u the best and I'm sry for the experience ur having.

taking 2mg now 2xday now.
last time in DEC 2012 it was 5mg 2xday

i may stop it. hate.

no. nothing.
but he wants a job again.
and cant take him being gone again.


wont be seeing him for nother 3/4 months again.

he put me on high zyprexa and i said i DONT WANT THAT BECAUSE OF WEIGHT GAIN. so i never took it. he got angry and said "WHY COME HERE THEN?" i said "i have no idea anymore."

ive tried 8-9 diff APs
still got that f**k all cigna.

i don like new meds that they REALLY SEVERLY mess with my thyroid and weight. older APs never have. but older APs make me sleep sleep sleep. :/

i woke up heard a child crying for help.
i couls sense it. too.
then it says "RIGHT THERE. RIGHT THERE" over and over to me. i looked everwhere for RIGHT THERE (?)
i told my dad i think i might be psychic.
i really believe it.

Hi Newtus,

I don't know anything really about meds but if you think it is making you worse, then you need to tell the doctor, even by phone if he can't see you. I know you don't like talking to the doctor, so I know that's not an easy thing. But, the point is to be better and not worse. I don't know the side effects of haldol, but I think the point is to make the hallucinations less and not more.

I wish I knew some other advice. I am sorry you're having such a hard time and I keep hoping you get some relief from all of this hell you're going through.

Newtus, I, too, am sorry your having a hard time right now. Meds are suppose to take away the noise not add to it. Could it be that things are getting worse because your illness is progressing and the meds haven't kicked in yet? Just a thought. It took some time to make those new neural pathways, however they may be wonky, so it's going to take some time to get those errant pathway's under control, especially with the right AP. Hang in there and give your AP some time to work in your system before you can honestly say Haldol is not for you. Unfortunately, AP meds are a hit or miss and the only way to know if they are beneficial is you have to slog through them and I'm sure you already know that. Big hugs.

I worry about my son being alone so much too.

I asked about Zyprexa, because it's the only thing that's really helped my son. Like you he was not eating much before he started taking it. He had lost a lot of weight. His weight had dropped from 146 to 116. On Zyprexa he gained up to 165 (which is still okay for his height). Then as they lowered the dose he dropped back to the low 130's. He was actually forcing himself to eat in order to maintain that low weight. Right now he's back up to 140, apparently without making an effort.

I guess the point is that I know Zyprexa has that reputation for being a weight gain med, but it isn't for everyone. My son takes it and he's lean. Unless you try it, you can't know if you'll gain or not. And if he had freaked out early on when he was gaining a lot, he might not have found out that he could stay on this med without being fat.

It's not perfect. He's still not happy about the quality of his sleep, but he does sleep. That's a miracle in itself.

When are you eligible for Medicare?

but im scared.
i was obese when i take that seroquel and almost got diabetes. prediabetic. i was 30 pounds overweight. 160 was overweight for my height. i was 180+.so scared. i am scared to death to put on more than 2-3 pounds. i gain secondary health issues because it too im still plagued by. ive got joint probs. latuda&abilify made me gain weight and its supposed to be weight neutral!!!

NOV. i think.
my moms cutting out the insurance sometime b4 that.

Yeah. I understand. And I'm sure weight gain is harder for a woman than a man. My son would kind of like to be bigger. The weight comes off if you discontinue the med, though, right?

I think one of the problems is that people are overmedicated. My son still struggles with 'symptoms,' but I'd rather he have that problem than that he be overmedicated. I'm sure if he had a pdoc at the mhc, they'd be upping his meds all the time over minor things. But right now he's so aware of paranoid thoughts and what he calls 'the kind of thoughts that can lead to psychosis.' He's trying to come up with coping strategies. That's healthier IMO than overmedicating. He's taken a larger dose twice over the last month to help him cope. Other than that he's using non-medication coping strategies.

When you're overmedicated you're going to have bad experiences and end up quitting the medication altogether. At least that's what I've seen.

I understand. I don't want to take things like seroquil because of the diabetes risk. I'm already over weight as it is, so I don't want to get worse. Diabetes is already in my family as it is.

I think it's terrible that meds make you gain weight like that. I wish they could figure out how to make it so that doesn't happen. It's like trying to decide what's worse. Diabetes or psychosis? I guess it just depends on how bad the psychosis is if you can't live your life at all. With diabetes there are a lot of things you can do to help it and live normally. But, there's not an easy answer.

i think i was overmedicated seroquel.
i was on something between 600-800mg seroquel.
seroquel was what made me quit meds for the rest of my life. before 2010 i was somewhat pretty compliant from 13 yrs old til 18-19 yrs old. but i wasnt ona lot of APs. i was on different ADs. until about 17 yrs old.

the weight doesnt come off easy with stopping. i still have to work. i put on 80 pounds n 2 years on seroquel. then took me 2 years to lose it and i still went back up 10 pounds cause all the hospital stays that put on me different meds!!!!! i am very petite and short. i can 100 pounds and still be in a normal weight range. at 120 pounds i start looking overweight without actually being overweight. right now im 110 which is thin right now, but id like to be 107 or 105.

im not anorexic im just scared to death of my physical health ever since that diabetes scare.

Seroquil had an opposite effect on me. I lost weight. I was on respradone and I gained 50 pound but my psychosis was gone. I got off respradone and they put me on seroquil and I lost 30 pounds so I guess it works different for everyone. But seroquil doesn't help my psychosis at all it just makes me sleepy.