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what is it like for you?

[LostMom3]

Each one is different for me. Depends on what triggered or where I am when it starts

[Frokly]

wow the second time i had a psychotic episode it started gradually, i notice certain people around me and thought they were spies... this was in 2008 during my first year in college, so i started acting weird and had no friends, i think people were making fun of my behaviour behind my back.

then the intensity picked up... and i can't recall much... but i know... it was mostly terrifying first, then i dropped out and the world ended in a nuclear holocaust and i also saved the world from an alien invasion on my own i was horrified, after some time people started watching me through satellites and now people still watch me through some strange Japanese technology which allow them really good close ups..

honestly i'm sparing you the details... because i'd have to write a book like i'm doing now... about my experiences... its a fantasy novel... to explain all that happened... wish me luck on my writing?

Frokly

[jesuslovedtech]

I've never had a really bad one. The last one I had was at work. I spent the week thinking that everyone was out to sabotage the work I was doing, that they were going on my computer behind my back and deleting files. It ended with me going on a collegues computer when she left her desk and seeing they had all been *****ing about me.

Started with paranoid delusions - ended in depression and me feeling like my gut had been torn out with paranoid delusions.

jesuslovedtech

[FireBird]

First it starts with simple insomnia like I have been experiencing the last 3 days. In fact its 330 AM right now. I might have had 1-2 hours of sleep last night if that. No I'm not manic that I know of. Then I start having minor thought insertion, just a thought or two coming from the outside. After that comes the audible voices and visual hallucinations. I also have according to doctors delusions but I don't believe them. I am not going to get into my beliefs here right now but to outsiders they are weird just as I am weird. In the middle of the day its the worst, complete with disorganized speech and behavior. I don't know why the afternoon is the worst. Then if severe enough I engage in self harm including head banging, cutting, and overdosing. Then I land in the hospital. Technically I've been in an episode since January of this year. Is it ever going to end?

[noodlzzz]

Little sleep, too much caffeine, paranoia of being followed. Then the voices start and I become delusional and unable to see what is real. Takes a couple of weeks to become full blown.

[adj2013]

The real bad episodes I feel like I'm possessed because they are not my words coming out of my mouth and those are not my thoughts in my head- also it seems my bodily movements are not mine.

Not anything that can be described nor what someone "normal" could comprehend.

[faerie_moon_x]

I remember my long one I felt really powerful and wise. I was actually doing really well at school at that time, so I guess you could say I was high functioning. I didn't feel anything was wrong with me. Everything was logical to me, made sense. Mood-wise I was good. I thought my depression was gone. But, I was having other random issues I remember like this black outs where I would go into a fog. My cousin stayed with me for 2 weeks at one point because I would just forget. My dad didn't believe it was happening, we had a huge fight over that. I don't know if that was part of the psychosis, though.

My more recent things... I feel about the same, actually. When I start to be paranoid I feel all the dots connect and everything is logical and makes sense. I try to reality check, but it's hard. This time I don't have anyone "playing along," and my husband is extremely blunt about when I go down roads that are paranoid and them not being true things. But, I feel like if a big one comes along again I could easily not even know it's happening, especially if I keep it to myself.

Mine are usually very different from each other, though they all have similar... themes? I guess.
My most recent one started off with me hearing voices, telling me that I needed to save the world and telling me how. I don't like to say I had delusions, because I still kind of believe my thoughts are, indeed true, though I know they sound far-fetched. Anyway, I started finding secret messages through the radio and through books and I got paranoid that people were trying to kill me to stop the prophecy from coming true.

Basically most of my "episodes" play out like that. Sometimes they can get worse and be more elaborate and sometimes they are a little more simple.