[faerie_moon_x]

I wish I knew what caused a day to be worse than another day.

Yesterday I felt okay. Stress at home is low, things are going good there. Stress at work is not so bad, either, just normal rightnow. But today I have my head pressure, I feel down, I struggle to read, can't focus, no motivation.

I don't like days like today. I feel confused, aggitateed, and just not myself.

I don't know what's causing it. I can't htink of anytriggers. I feel like people are spying on me. I get sick from when I had my gallbladder out. Sometimes I have to go to the bathroom for a long tiem. So, I was sitting quietly playing a game on my phone for it to end. Someone come sin, uses, the bathroom, leaves. A few seconds later someone else comes in, checking her makeup. But I swear the first person told her I was just sitting there so go spy on me. I feel this very strongly. I can't help it if I get sick, I'm not doing anything.

[justmeandmyhead]

its a full moon tonight could be that i went out today and constantly felt like i was being watched and followed its the full moon. sorry you feel bad

[costello]

I think some days are just worse than others.

I talk to my son about this, because it's so easy to fall into despair on the bad days. I like the Buddhist concept of impermanence. Nothing lasts forever - even bad things. They pass. I know, though, that on those bad days, it doesn't always help to remember that.

[pegasus]

Hugs ((((( faerie moon x )))))) Sometimes many little stresses can add up and make us feel worse.

[newtus]

i feel for you.
i feel for you a lot.

[faerie_moon_x]

I just wish days liek this I could stay home instead of have to sit here with a malfunctioning brain. But if I did that, then I'd never come in. Haha.

[newtus]

are you still in MT?

[newtus]

i dont understand WHY they made the stupid abbr for states the way they. are.

they should had 3 letters instead of two

like TEX - texas
CAL - california

MON - montana

NYO - new york

FLO - floria

OKL - oklahoma

hmmm what else

UTA - Utah

and so on

[faerie_moon_x]

No, I don't know which one is MT? I've always been in CO. I agree it's confusing, especially states that have so many of the same first letters. I can't think of any right now, but I know there are some.

[newtus]

oh?
montana...............

[newtus]

Originally Posted by faerie_moon_x

I can't think of any right now, but I know there are some.

dont stress urself u need to rest.

[faerie_moon_x]

Originally Posted by newtus

dont stress urself u need to rest.

No worries, I already forgot to think about it.

It's like... something in my brain is going haywire all of a sudden. I wish I knew what it is. Like someone flipps a switch and suddenly I can't think. THen, the swifts flichs the other way and it's okeay again. I'll be fine all day then BOOM! I don't understand. I bet in like 2 hours It will stop again. It goes really fast, good bad good.

I haqve t o clean my deaks off.... errr.... I'm looking at this and seeing it's so bad right now. I have to lcean my desk off. It's a challeningse this way. AH! challenge. Sorry.... trying to not fix things so I can show someone later so it's proof.

[faerie_moon_x]

Feeling better this morning. I just watched that movie Warm Bodies last night (it was very good, I recommend it,) and spent some time on my own. I feel all shaken today like I had an episode last night. But I didn't. Everything was calm.

thanks for listening.

[Gr3tta]

Thanks for the update faerie moon. I am glad you are feeling better. I sometimes get random days when I feel like s**t for no apparent reason. Its frustrating not to know why.
I will look for that movie. I watch TONS of movies. My wife and I probably watch 15 - 20 movies a week!

[faerie_moon_x]

I still feel off. Not like yesterday where my brain frizzed out, though. I hate it. Suddenly I can't type. It's like my words are all scrambled in my brain. Why? I don't know.

I do fee weird, though. But, not as bad. I really appreciate you guys listening to me. I don't think I'll ever have answers abotut what's going on. I was able to work on one of my stories. I'm not going to post it yet because I'm still a bit fuzzy so I'll re-read it tomorrow. But, that's good progress.

[Atypical_Disaster]

I still feel off. Not like yesterday where my brain frizzed out, though. I hate it. Suddenly I can't type. It's like my words are all scrambled in my brain. Why? I don't know.

Ugh yeah, this happens to me too. It seriously sucks.

[faerie_moon_x]

Okay so it's starting again. So, I am making a note that it's starting. I feel like a buzziness in my head. I had a slight panic attack about 15 minutes ago but it was already sort of started before that (in fct thingking it's what helped the pnaic attack.) Grr... Okay, thinking it helped me start panicking. Or it's part of it.

I feel like there is buzzing all inside my head/arms/and legs. Arms around my lower arm between elbow and hanmd (forgot what that's called.) And legs between knee and foot but all the way into my feet too. The confusion is coming in like a gof... fog... it's like I get a zapp and suddenly I can't type then I'm okay then I can't again. WTF!? Grrr! I hate this It zaps the spelling and figer sequences right out of my head for typing.

Thanks for listening guys.

[Mountainman2013]

Originally Posted by faerie_moon_x

I wish I knew what caused a day to be worse than another day.

Yesterday I felt okay. Stress at home is low, things are going good there. Stress at work is not so bad, either, just normal rightnow. But today I have my head pressure, I feel down, I struggle to read, can't focus, no motivation.

I don't like days like today. I feel confused, aggitateed, and just not myself.

I don't know what's causing it. I can't htink of anytriggers. I feel like people are spying on me. I get sick from when I had my gallbladder out. Sometimes I have to go to the bathroom for a long tiem. So, I was sitting quietly playing a game on my phone for it to end. Someone come sin, uses, the bathroom, leaves. A few seconds later someone else comes in, checking her makeup. But I swear the first person told her I was just sitting there so go spy on me. I feel this very strongly. I can't help it if I get sick, I'm not doing anything.

Hello. This post describes me much of the time. I don't usually have all bad or all good days. I go OK for a couple of hours then for no reason it becomes horrible. I work, too, so I understand how that goes. I just keep thinking that my awful mood will go away just as it came. Doesn't last forever. It's a two-edge sword because once I feel so so I start thinking about what's coming next. And that's not good. Hope it gets better for you.

[faerie_moon_x]

Originally Posted by Mountainman2013

Hello. This post describes me much of the time. I don't usually have all bad or all good days. I go OK for a couple of hours then for no reason it becomes horrible. I work, too, so I understand how that goes. I just keep thinking that my awful mood will go away just as it came. Doesn't last forever. It's a two-edge sword because once I feel so so I start thinking about what's coming next. And that's not good. Hope it gets better for you.

My mood is okay, I just can't think, making tons of errors. Other than the panic attack I'm having an okay day mood-wise. (I also have GAD)

[faerie_moon_x]

So it's let up a bit. It's so fast. I wish I knew what it was. But, thanks for listening, everyone. I appreciate it.