this deep hole

i sometimes wonder if stuff i go through is common. like everything. everything from divorce bad parents (which IS common. at least divorce is) to stuff like howi was treated at hospital stays to seeing people getting stabbed upclose and so on and so forth.

Bad parents is very common. Hospital treatment I have no idea. Seeing people get stabbed I think is more uncommon, I think, but also maybe depends on the environment you live in. I think in the US, though, it's more uncommon but not "rare."

thats just 3 things.

i kept it short.

in order to make a point

im mostly a bother to my dad. thats why im trying to find my own life. mostly in doing SOMETHING.

i dont talk much about details here anymore bout my life

but today i bothered my dad while cooking after he kept telling me not to. because i was so lonely. and wanted to talk. and he burnt himself on hot oil and cussed. said passive-aggresively that it was my fault.

i notice though cooking is only time hell pay attention to me. like actually talk to me. talking about the weather or how the house is delapidating or how the neighbors or doing is so superficial. he doesnt have time. to talk. the only reason i decided to tlak was bcuz have no one else to IRL.

Newtus I'm sorry that you're feeling so lonely

*Willow*