the frustration of losing my mind

faerie_moon_x · Aug 02, 2013, 02:58 PM

also I noticed this time of day is when I seem to have my brain zaps. It's afternoon worse. Goes way by evening.

The_little_didgee · Aug 02, 2013, 02:58 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

I was taking 10mg, its a whole different game. But it goes up to like 30mg, pdoc keeps telling me how low my dose is at 5mg, basically 10mg is the starting dose for psychosis. I was totally hyper on 10mg but I couldn't read my favorite types of books (fiction) only non-fiction because it was easier. Now I can read fiction again.

I'm glad its working for you, I mean it was a real lifesaving med for me but it has its limitations.

I am very sensitive to medications and require mush lower doses then recommended. Everybody is different. I just thought, perhaps the dosage was too high.

I am glad you can read fiction again.

Aug 02, 2013, 03:17 PM

Yes I remember you don't take meds. At least that's one thing ruled out! If you did want to take them though setting reminders on your phone would help you remember them. I had one that had a dose to be taken at 2pm and would've completely forgotten without phone reminders.

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Originally Posted by faerie_moon_x

Willow, my executive cognition is what's going. My working memory is bad also. Also I can't focus on reading and it messes with my understanding. When I can focus I understand just fine. My processing is slow. So, it takes me a long time to react to stimulous. Such as if asked a question I might sit there for a minute. Or, if I'm trying to find a place to click on teh screen (like a link or tab) it takes me a long time to find it. Sometimes when peopel talk to me it just sounds like mush and nonsense. I have to ask for a repeat. Sometimes I'll say what I hear outloud so they see I'm not understanding. My ability to organize is really bad. Like folding and putting away clothes is an example. I get confused. I confuse what time it is, flipping morning/afternoon. Dialing phone numbers is often impossible. Sometimes 5-6 tries to dial one number. (And this is my job so it's very frustrating.)

Yeah I switch numbers around all the time too, so have to check 5 times when copying numbers or dialling because I often don't even notice the mistake. I'm also struggling with organising my thoughts for essays, like which order to make my points in/write sentences/put paragraphs etc. Also I keep getting bad marks for my essays because I haven't answered the question properly, like I think I have been direct, but I've gone all around the houses without actually hitting the nail on the head. It's like what I think I've written, isn't actually what I've written when it comes to essays. It's really affecting my course and I don't know what to do about it.

Pdoc keeps asking exactly what I'm struggling with, but I feel that if I knew exactly what the issues were, I'd be able to figure out a way around them, but I don't know what to do about it. Another reason I'm so worried about my exams, because my average is ok at the moment (brought up by lab reports and stats), but the more essays I write, the worse it's getting.

I've read about executive function, and studying psychology I should remember what it constitutes, but each time I read what it is, I've forgotten 5 mins later. I know working memory is part of it, and organising/planning ahead, but I forget what the other things are. I'm struggling to learn new things because I forget so quickly.

*Willow*

Sometimes psychotic · Aug 02, 2013, 03:19 PM

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Originally Posted by The_little_didgee

I am very sensitive to medications and require mush lower doses then recommended. Everybody is different. I just thought, perhaps the dosage was too high.

I am glad you can read fiction again.

He would not put me lower than 10 for 6 months but then i went to 7.5 a year ago, i could not stand 5 back then...i just wanted to yell at people all the time so thats why i went back up to 7.5...i really needed it. I'm glad that 1 works for you, I hope to get down to 1 or really off entirely.

The_little_didgee · 05:28 PM

A lot of what you described is what I go through on a daily basis.

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Originally Posted by faerie_moon_x

Sometimes when peopel talk to me it just sounds like mush and nonsense. I have to ask for a repeat. Sometimes I'll say what I hear outloud so they see I'm not understanding.

This sounds like auditory processing disorder. Have you heard of that?

faerie_moon_x · Aug 02, 2013, 03:31 PM

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Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23

Yes I remember you don't take meds. At least that's one thing ruled out! If you did want to take them though setting reminders on your phone would help you remember them. I had one that had a dose to be taken at 2pm and would've completely forgotten without phone reminders.

Yeah I switch numbers around all the time too, so have to check 5 times when copying numbers or dialling because I often don't even notice the mistake. I'm also struggling with organising my thoughts for essays, like which order to make my points in/write sentences/put paragraphs etc. Also I keep getting bad marks for my essays because I haven't answered the question properly, like I think I have been direct, but I've gone all around the houses without actually hitting the nail on the head. It's like what I think I've written, isn't actually what I've written when it comes to essays. It's really affecting my course and I don't know what to do about it.

Pdoc keeps asking exactly what I'm struggling with, but I feel that if I knew exactly what the issues were, I'd be able to figure out a way around them, but I don't know what to do about it. Another reason I'm so worried about my exams, because my average is ok at the moment (brought up by lab reports and stats), but the more essays I write, the worse it's getting.

I've read about executive function, and studying psychology I should remember what it constitutes, but each time I read what it is, I've forgotten 5 mins later. I know working memory is part of it, and organising/planning ahead, but I forget what the other things are. I'm struggling to learn new things because I forget so quickly.

*Willow*

For some reason reminders don't help me. I dont' knwo why. it's very weird. I've tried all types of reminds even ones that flash and beep.

Like you with the essays I have the problem with my stories. I know what I want to say but I dan't seem to put into order. I try to force it and I come up with all types of confusing things. I agree I'm like trying to say something so clearly but missing the point, but I feel I made the point.

What you describe sounds exactly like what I mam having troubles with.

Sorry my brain is fried at the moment, excuse my typing. Grrr...

So uhm executive functioning is focus/attention, organization, memory, planning, processing. I think that's all of them, but maybe missing one. Executive cognition is seperate from cognitive intelligance (or IQ.) You can have very low executive functions but be very intelligant, or the othe way around. It's just more taht your intelligance is trapped. Or soemthing like that.

I agree it's hard to say exactly what is wrong. It's so frustrating. If I knew what it was I could stop it. I just know I could.

faerie_moon_x · Aug 02, 2013, 03:32 PM

Oh, little didgee, I'm also extremely sensitive to meds becaus I've sensitive to chemicals in general.

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