Don't know where to post this..

As topic states I have no idea where to post this. My main issues are practically every anxiety disorder, bpd, and depression. I been dealing with this pretty much my whole life. What is alarming me is past few days I been seeing things. This has NEVER happened to me. Whatever I am seeing is shadowy looking happens at night time only. I am not on any new meds. I am getting enough sleep. However I am under a great deal of stress causing my anxiety to go through the roof x10000000 and I read if one is isolated they can have hallucinations. This is scaring the **** out of me - panic I know how to handle - seeing stuff is freaking me out causing more anxiety. I don't know what to do and afraid to tell anyone in fear of being locked up in pysch hosp and with friends the judgements and they just won't get it.

when my anxiety would get really bad I would see things too. cars would explode on the highway in front of me sending firey debris at me. I would actually duck to keep it from hitting me. other cars would look like they were swerving into me. buildings on the side of the road would explode. trucks would look like they were toppling over on to me. it would get bad. medication took care of it. I take buspar. it is definitely something to talk to pdoc about. I didn't get locked up over it. it was clearly my anxiety playing tricks on my mind. take care.

OK so they won't lock you up just for seeing things. You can adjust your medications on an outpatient basis. Maybe your friends will get it or maybe they won't. People here get it though and you can talk to us. So first if this is while you're falling asleep or waking up you have the favorable dx of completely normal. If you're totally awake then maybe its the start of a problem but the good thing is you caught it early. See your pdoc for a new anti-psychotic and wait for 6 months of stabilization then go off. Psychosis is also pretty weird/scary so you might want to see a therapist to help deal with those feelings. Psychosis can occur when you are under a great deal of stress as you say you are, its not necessarily permanent so don't worry about schizophrenia yet, that's not unless you're sick for six months. All the best.

Only a doctor can tell you if you have schizophrenic. I am paranoid schizophrenic, and also suffer from anxiety and depression. I have hallucinations and hear voices. Mine happens mostly at night too. I don't sleep very well either. I understand what you are going through. It's difficult, but I am managing it. You can too. If you talk to your doctor about what's been happening to you, you may want to keep a journal or write a list of symptoms to give to your doctor. It will help you remember everything better.
Take care of yourself.

Piraeus

This is happening when I am awake. I don't see the nurse practitioner for meds till end of the month and my therapist around the same time. So as far as coping with this I have no idea what to do other than keep telling myself my mind is playing tricks. I think in all honesty it's the stress causing how you said psychosis mixed in with the damn isolation.

What you have to do is reframe whatever the problem is so that's its not the end of the world. If you can reduce the stress then maybe you won't develop full blown psychosis. Sometimes exercise and breathing can help, yoga is good. I also highly recommend CBT therapy or even a book on CBT. So you won't see your prescriber or T until the end of the month? Give them a call, this is serious stuff. Explain whats going on and they will probably see you sooner.

The stressor I am approaching next week is pretty intense. No way around it. meantime what I have tried - breathing with minimal help with anxiety and I get plenty of exercise 15-20miles a day on my bike. I put a call/email into my docs to see what they can do.

So my stressor was preparing for a talk at a national meeting while writing a grant that would determine whether my best friend would keep her job or not, teaching a student who kept screwing up his end of term report that I just wanted off my desk while I was writing an IBC protocol that would keep the lab open while the man I was secretly in love with just announced his engagement. I also had two grants fail outright threatening my job and that of my friends. I took it all pretty seriously and fell right into a full fledged psychosis where I had no idea that what I was seeing and hearing wasn't real. In retrospect even though jobs were literally at stake I should have reframed it as my bosses responsibility and not mine. We got the grant and then my friend got fired anyway. I never had any control over that after all but I had made it my responsibility. The IBC was late but we just kept working even though the lab should have been shut down. These really weren't my problems but my bosses but I had been recently promoted and wanted to impress her. Re-framing it after the fact not one element of that story was worth me making myself so sick I ended up in the mental hospital even my job. Maybe your stressor cannot be re-framed in advance but I'm telling you its not worth the trade off to your health to have a full break. It is two years later and I'm still on meds albeit tapering off right now. Anyway I'm glad you contacted your doctors, it can only help. I just think if I could go back I wouldn't take things so seriously. They needed to be done but even in the worst scenario of everyone losing their job and the lab being shut down completely I could have gotten a new job and been healthy.

I get what you are saying. My stressor is facing a trauma (court) that hopefully next week it will be over with once and for all so I can get on with my life. I did really good back in May when I learned of the court date and kept pushing it out of my mind and just didn't worry about it all like that. However now it's down to the wire and finding it hard to block. I get I have no control over what will happen and I try to surrender to that but its hard right now as my mind is just racing with thoughts. Doc/therapist never got back with me. I will try again tomorrow.

Ok I see how you can't change that but try not to think of the outcome as life or death if you can. Also you might try self care. Find three things that you love to do and do them all together. For me an example might be going to the botanic gardens either with a friend or an iPod with my favorite tunes(treat yourself and buy a few new songs) and then stopping for some high quality chocolates on the way home. I might even top off the evening with a bubble bath and some sparkling grape juice. I don't know what your finances are like but the hospital was $2000 a day when I ended up there so chocolates and new tunes would be less. Just pamper yourself. Or you might want to try laughing to yourself for ten minutes, it changes your mood...it's a little weird but it really works. Hope you hear back from your docs soon.

Just FYI - I made an appt for my primary care doctor - to rule out anything medically 1st. Appt is Monday.

I will do my best to self sooth myself. Walked upp and got some gelato and about to take a nice bubble bath. Then after that I plan on working on my Pinterest acct. Tomorrow I will try and practice the same things as well to keep myself calm and relaxed. I had another visual disturbance few mins ago It's weird it only happens at night.

Good to know...it could be medical....I always forget that because I had already been to the ER twice before I saw a pdoc. Thought I was having a heart attack etc, they gave me a complete physical work up then a psych referral. Usually a good pdoc will run some tests on you like an MRI or EEG anyway.

I mostly had auditory but they were constant. I had to sleep with a light on for months because they got worse at night even on meds.

Sounds like a good plan.

Really disappointed my providers never called me back I expressed I was having extreme symptoms I never had experienced without going into detail. Them not getting back is kicking up my borderline issue...it's so hard for me to trust my providers...they say when in crisis reach out I did a few times with no luck... They say they get I don't have the support that is why they are there??? Whatever...
Plan on taking it easy over the weekend - hit the trails - take a little while and take in the peaceful surroundings of wherever I wind up - go for some ice cream afterwards - go home read - bubble bath - netflix - that's Saturday only lol smh

Sounds like a good plan. You don't have like a psychiatrist on call you can talk to...my pdoc works at a hospital so there's one of them on call all the time. It's an alternate number on his card. You can always call a crisis line if you get worse, but they will probably call the cops to check on you so you know do it only if you are desperate. Otherwise just keep up the self care.

Finally saw my treatment team - they said I experienced psychosis from all the stress I am under. it's still happening and they didn't really say much in how to cope with it. My stress levels will not be coming down anytime soon with court not being over and this keeps dragging out.

They didn't give you meds?