[Brosci]

Well I finaly told my parents about my depression and how wellbutrin made the few psychosis episodes I ever had become recurring and driving me crazy. So i'm getting help. But i can't help but think that I still can't trust anyone. I don't know . This is the only place I actually am myself at. I feel like my parents are 80% with me and 20 % fake. I don't know . I don't' really trust anyone anymore. Can't tell if it's from prior experiences or what. But now I'm not hearing voices in my head I just thinkconversations are about me when i hear people whisper or laugh.The thing is sometimes it is true. I was driving once and some people stopped and looked in my car and mentioned something in my life that is kinda happening at my moment and is gossip i guess. I dont know anymore. It's like I can't seperate the reality from what i think. I just don't feel at ease anymore. I use to think someone was hacking my computer and it took me days after getting of the meds to feel somewhat easy. I would put a sticker on my labtops webcam doing " acts" because i felt guilty or thought someone was watching me when I was on the meds. But i do get attacks with loud noices like when i vacuum. I've only been off meds for like 2 days so it's going downhill and not as sever each day.

[Brosci]

I never thought I'd go this crazy. i guess that's what a few years of gossip, bullying and stalking do to you.
One of my favorite qoutes is " If i wasn't crazy I wouldn't go insane". I think me thinking I'm going crazy is the only thing in my head telling me I'm not at that point

[faerie_moon_x]

I have the same issues that when I hear people whispering or laughing I feel it's about me. Every time I hear whispering, not just sometimes. And laughing I'd say 95% of the time.

I won't allow a web cam in my house because I fear getting hacked and watched. I think that is actually a reasonable concern because it does happen. There's a guy in my town who made the news. He got hacked and very personal video of him was sold to porn sites. So, I think the sticker on your web cam is very good idea personally.

Family is a hard thing. I never told my dad I have bipolar. I really feel no need. He's old and has very bad heart problems, no reason to make him worry over soemthing he doesn't understand. Plus, when I was a kid he regularly dismissed my asking him to get me some help for what I thought was depression. So.... I don't see the need to tell him.

[worthit]

I have all those issues too. I think that there's a camera in my cable box and that disturbs me and I have to acknowledge that I think it's possible and live my life anyway. I used to think everyone was talking about me when waiting for the signal the person next to me was laughing or talking , I was sure it was about me. But as I've gotten older, on medication, and therapy I realize it just simply is not. It's hard to deal with even though you feel sure that you're right. Good luck

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[Brosci]

Yah i kinda had a hard time so i always feel unstable now. But since i've quit these meds my psychosis has gone down considerably alot to the point i feel normal. My depression still sucks though and I don't feel mentally stable till i get that under wraps.It was at a point i'd record things and i would notice that i was right like 75% of the time though. But the 25% wasn't true but with the meds it was more like the reverse.