'Delusional' content.

In no particular order -

Lost soul to the devil. Uncovered an alien plot being orchestrated by the devil to enslave humanity & turn the population of the world into zombies, & create hell on earth. Saw vision of the end of the world & desolation of the planet. At one time or another was convinced I was the devil, Antichrist, reincarnation of St Paul, Creator of the Universe, Jesus. Had certain devices, a watch & button that was going to be used in a doomsday device to initiate global thermonuclear war. Had died & was in the afterlife, & solving crimes in spirit. Was being monitored by satellites & other high technology. People were cyborgs/robots.

There was 2 of everyone & everything, different time steams & parallel worlds. I was an immortal & the neighbours were vampires. There were underground cities, & massively complex tunnel systems, underground high speed transportation networks & secret passageways that joined a lot of houses. I was under surveillance by secret agents. I knew the location of a crashed mother ship & was leader of an underground resistance of light side aliens who were in a war with dark alien forces, & had been infested with a super virus. There was only days & hours left of sunlight. Voodoo/black magic practitioners had stolen my identity & were turning me into a zombie. I was becoming lost in a parallel world & stolen by inter dimensional wizards. Very serious criminals were secretly stealing items of clothing & committing serious crime in the clothes & then planting them back in the house to frame me.

I was being broadcast on international TV networks. I existed in many places & times, in tombs & other places. All the TV programs were about me, & people I knew. Everything with bugged with tiny surveillance devices. Different people were connected to mother ships orbiting the earth via the internet. At different times a number of different people I knew were the devil. I'd been blown up in a previous life in a high technology communications tunnel that I was servicing. I was in contact with & being vetted by high levels of naval intelligence. Someone close to me was changing 'skin suits' as disguises. People were hiding in secret compartments/rooms & tunnel systems in the walls & under the house. People were plotting to kidnap & torture & kill me. A brood of snakes was growing under the sink.

I could go on, some of it is very hard to describe & put into words. Must have totalled around 8 years in 'floridly psychotic/delusional' states, & the majority of it outside of hospital/contact with MH services. Maintaining a low dose of a neuroleptic medication for the past 9 years does appear to stop me going into florid psychosis, & maintain some contact with 'consensus reality'.

I think it's interesting to hear peoples experiences of psychosis/schizophrenia & what similarities there may be. Maybe what I have has all been a classic case of paranoid schizophrenia.

I thought I had sold my soul to the devil too by accident and then became the third horse of the apocalypse. I had two parallel worlds the real world and the dream or spirit world. I was basically supposed to save people through healing by channeling the energy of a disabled wind goddess in the spirit world through this guy who was a peacock shaman---he was this guy who I was sort of in love with and I thought he was a shape shifter as well and we could have sex while he was a black jaguar and I was a cloud tiger in the spirit word. It was the worst sex ever btw, but they said that was just because he was young and not mentally experienced enough yet. Anyway in the spirit world everybody was psychic and did telepathy and some people in an organization here on earth did the same. So this earth organization the AGA was trying to recruit me to a higher level so they were simultaneously hazing me for initiation and training me to heal people remotely using my peacock staff which was a tiffany style floor lamp I bought at an antique store. I was supposed to decide who I really was in the spirit world and I was thinking everything from the spirit of a river by a weeping willow to mother nature herself eventually I decided that I too was a peacock shaman because I could shapeshift too, so essentially I could be anything. It was pretty wonderful except for the part where I accidentally sold my soul, there was a thunderstorm outside so I think I just incorporated it and it made my visions darker. This was over a month and a half.

Thank you for sharing that. It is fascinating, but I know how terrifying it can all be as well.

It's almost as if these expereinces are some kind of psychic realities, that the brain miss-interprets in a way? I can't really figure it out? It would appear to be in part some kind of visionary state - to my understanding. The medication, for me, does stop the psychic overwhelm.

They're watching me. The spies working for the government with the satanists trying to get me to massacre a large group of people. I can't let them do that and only shaking a container of salt 20 times ad carving pentagrams into my skin keep them away. They're watching through the trees and windows and mirrors.

Sometimes though my insides have been replaced by synthetics. Oil and electrical parts. I'm a cyborg and if anyone finds out they'll kidnap me and subject me to experiments.

Alternatively I am essentially god. No one and nothing exists without me wanting it to. Nothing exists outside of my scope. When I close a door everything on the other side does not exist. It only exists when I open it.

Sometimes I'll have short bursts of other ideas when I don't take my meds, but those are the main three I've been dealing with.

There is another world/ dimension under China. It is filled with fantasy creatures such as dragons and wizards. Aliens as well. They are plotting to enter this world and take over Earth.

I am one of the Chosen Ones to fight them. There are many Chosen Ones to fight this war. We all have superpowers. Mine is psychic powers of influence, invulnerability, and flight. I have influenced earthquakes in the past and other disasters. For the last few years my powers has increased to destroy planets with lots of alien lifeforms. I feel incredibly guilty that I didn't save the planets. The voice in my head told me to save the planets by cutting myself in certain places to release energy to destroy comets from hitting the planet. Once a solar flare hit the planet and wiped it out but I could have saved that planet. Several planets have died.

The government is covering this up and will never admit alien life until its too late. Several years ago the aliens wanted me to fight in an intergalactic war.

The government is 200 years ahead in technology and is in contact with aliens from several planets. The fire dragon is terrifying. Once he gets here its all over. Their army of fantasy creatures and the aliens are far more powerful than us. I don't know when this will happen. It could be now or years from now. This has caused wandering so I can find the base to train for combat. Except I am not strong enough to fight and have medical problems.

I see visions and predictions in dreams that came true. I could have saved them. The government has underground bases. Sometimes the aliens talk about freezing the Sun. Long ago and I don't believe it as much now but I thought I was turning into a robot. A lot of this causes me to self-injure. I also have thought insertion besides the voices.

The new pill I am on is helping with the voices (haven't heard anything for awhile) but not the thought insertion and so called delusions. I still believe all the things here. I act on them. With the Latuda I am more functional though. There are times where I bang my head against the wall to get rid of the chip in my head and when it really gets bad I get the hammer to hit my head. I am sorry if this triggers anyone.

I am in an experiment run by the government. They placed a chip in my brain that secretes protein ZIP suppressant called Kinase C. It stops memories from forming and corrupts old memories which are why I have such a bad memory now. Every now and then I it corrupts and I see things from my past which don’t fit in to the generally regarding history of me. Such as visions of me using magic, or being tortured, visions of death and the macabre. They are trying to get me to kill someone or myself. It is an experiment that follows the MK ULTRA experiments. The only way the chip stops malfunctioning is by an injection which they give me in prison or hospital. This is where I tend to end up if it does malfunction.
I see other realities. And sometimes flit in to them briefly. They are sometimes really bizarre and sometimes mundane.
I do not believe I am Human.
I believe buttons hold the key to my mental health. So I always carry a button on me somewhere.
I am being hunted by a man in an overcoat. As I often see him down streets and in places I have been. I used to see him in pictures of me but they have all been destroyed now.
These are the main ones….

Hair dye contains microbots that go into your brain so the government and spies and demons can hear your thoughts.

Moon creatures are taking cats to worship. Watch out if you let your cat outside. Be sure to send a prayer to Bastet it helps keep them safe.