[JoyDivision7680]

Okay, so I'm starting to lack of emotions. I can only feel three now: love, fear and anger. Friday I went to an event and I could hardly feel any emotions, which is very strange because it never happened to me. I wasn't excited at all, whether if it was before or during the event. Two days after it I felt a little excitement, but that's all.

[faerie_moon_x]

I process things oddly. Sometimes I have delayed reaction with my emotions, especially surprise / excitement. I get excited with more of a build up over time. It's a slow process for me. Especially if I'm surprised with something. it takes a bit for it to build up. This can be very confusing to people, making them think I'm emotionless / don't appreciate things. But in fact I can be very excited but it takes a bit to process. Sometimes longer than other times.

[JoyDivision7680]

Did it happen to you suddenly too? I took a break, so to speak, from experiencing other emotions than love and calm, and all the sudden I began experiencing short manic episodes, unexplained anger and lots of fear. Even when I was a child I would only smile on Christmas day, or when I was happy, but on the inside I was very euphoric, so it might be a cause for what's happening now I guess...

[faerie_moon_x]

I've always had weird processing of emotions. Either I have too much or too little. There are documentation of me having flat affect even as a kid in pictures. Other times I'm completely hyper with my emotion. As a kid I was told I was too sensitive a lot.

The sudden change for me is rage. I now experience rage with violent intrusive thougths quite regularly. I used to be rather easy going and had a slow temper. Now I flare up in rage suddenly with things that wouldn't have bothered me before. This started about a year ago.

I also have generalized anxiety disorder so I tend to get very nervous / worried / anxious to the point I become physically ill.

[wushuduck]

Firstly, I'm not diagnosed with Psychosis or Schizophrenia yet. I saw a useless doctor yesterday (my usual one is away), in hope that he could refer me to the psychiatrist I was seeing, who initially referred me to a team that specializes in the prevention of psychosis, but a couple of weeks later she withdrew that referral, as I was getting better. But now I feel like my mental health is deteriorating again.

I also am feeling a lack of emotions. I don't laugh at the things I normally laugh at, don't find myself interested in things. In fact the only things I still feel are sadness and the occasional anger. The rest of it is just... nothing. I don't know if it's my meds, I've been on 100 mg Zoloft for 6 weeks now, so it could have something to do with them.

[IndieVisible]

I usually only feel apathy except for my kids who i am able to love and be happy with or for. For every thing else it's usually nothing at all or anger or hate or depression. The only line to sanity for me is my children. The only glimmer of hope and happiness I have.