[justmeandmyhead]

After previous hospital stint the psych said he wasn't going to diagnose me with schizophrenia because of the stigma and so diagnosed me psychotic depression as he said they are treated the same anyway.
Now after recent hospital stay I noticed on my sick note they have changed my diagnosis to acute schizophrenia. I have my discharge meeting tomorrow so will be asking what changed his mind. He also warned me that if I stop taking my meds they will put me on a depot. I'm now on Risperidone. Just thought would post an update.

[newtus]

exactly.
im on a depot.
it sucks @SS

id be interested in hearing why too.

[KUREHA]

Yeah you should definitely ask.

I was on depot as well and it does suck.

[justmeandmyhead]

yeah definitely want to avoid it if possible. I think it might be a different dr that did it because I wasn't depressed an they knew it wasn't that. ah well

[ickydog2006]

I'm glad you were able to get some help. Have you gone off your meds in the past?

[justmeandmyhead]

Originally Posted by ickydog2006

I'm glad you were able to get some help. Have you gone off your meds in the past?

Thanks. Yeah I stopped taking them recently and had another 'psychotic episode' so they call it.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by justmeandmyhead

Thanks. Yeah I stopped taking them recently and had another 'psychotic episode' so they call it.

thats most likely why.

i cant even begin to tell youhow often i went off mine. over dozens. thats why im on depot. that and multiple hospitalizations and also not realizing when im psychotic.

[justmeandmyhead]

Originally Posted by newtus

thats most likely why.

i cant even begin to tell youhow often i went off mine. over dozens. thats why im on depot. that and multiple hospitalizations and also not realizing when im psychotic.

Is hard isn't it why would we take meds when we don't think there's anything wrong. Apparently I lose insight when I'm become psychotic too

[newtus]

yea. i read on schizophrenia.com someone said that even the most psychotic person has their own fraction of insight. i honestly truly believe that.

[justmeandmyhead]

Originally Posted by newtus

yea. i read on schizophrenia.com someone said that even the most psychotic person has their own fraction of insight. i honestly truly believe that.

I would agree with that there's still that tiny bit of me that thinks 'wait this isn't right is it?'. is like i try and explain there's one hand that can see there's something not right but most of the time its really small and the other hand is massive and constantly smacking me in the face telling me there's nothing wrong and its them or its part of the plot etc etc

[justmeandmyhead]

i think all this messing around with diagnoses has shown me that mental health is so overlapped and it changes, there just is no definite definition for any one person

[Frokly]

yeah i agree with the big hand slapping you... even in supposed recovery i have delusions of people are watching me 24/7, toilet, bath everything... and there usually dozens of voices talking to me and hundreds watching me at one time i thought there we're millions watching and all were harrassing me and belittling me, everyday of my life like a reality show... only nobody talks about it and its a way to get me to jump off the edge because i'm dangerous or something... hence the hypomania diagnosis i have now...

i have voices all day long and persecution all day long even in supposed recovery only difference is when i'm not in recovery i'm talking to myself in public not just in my room and in a private space... but that small hand rarely if not at all slaps me either that or its so small i can barely feel it...

but my diagnosis changed 4 times... now i don't even care about the diagnosis as long as i can go to class and finish my university diploma

[likewater]

Originally Posted by justmeandmyhead

i think all this messing around with diagnoses has shown me that mental health is so overlapped and it changes, there just is no definite definition for any one person

Sometimes i think diagnoses aren't worth the pieces of paper they are written on. My last therapist said i was schizophrenic while my pdoc said i had Dissociative Identity Disorder. The one trauma therapist i saw before that who helped me the most never even mentioned any type of label just said i dissociated a lot. We can call it whatever name you want , i don' t care, i just want to function and be able to serve my purpose here on earth
and not be the way i am.

[justmeandmyhead]

I asked the pdoc an he said it's probably because I fit the criteria and wasn't depressed. He asked if it bothered me an I said I guess it doesn't make a difference.
Yeah diagnoses are just an opinion of the pdoc you see at that point