[The One Here]

I have been diagnosed with schizoafftive disorder. My psychosis started shortly after successfully using an ouija board (could have been the ideometer affect, but I don't know.) I also channeled these spirit hallucinations through automatic writing and scrying. Anyway, I've had delusions of having sex with hallucinations. I have full blown intense orgasms without needing to stimulate myself. These orgasms feel forced as if something else is making them, not me making them. The orgasms are real as I have seen my sexual fluids change texture. I'm just not sure about the tactile and visual and auditory stuff. Before medication and on the wrong medication I have had upwards of hundreds of orgasms a day. It drove me to even more insanity to the point of wanting to commit suicide. Sometimes I didn't want these intense orgasms and felt like I was being spiritually raped. Sometimes these sex sessions lasted for hours and sometimes just seconds. The ones that lasted a long time often left me feeling beyond physically drained. My hallucinations would tell me they were sex demons coming to give me great pleasure to the point of having me die in exctasy. There was something romantic and lustful about wanting to die for these demons. Well they never killed me but the exctatic states were so intense that I felt like I half way in between agonizing pleasure and point of feeling like I was going to pass out and die. I couldn't resist these sessions at times and would just give in to this reality and at other times I tried to fight it and the hallucinations would hurt me (nociceptive hallucinations).

So has anyone else had these types of hallucinations AND had orgasms. I am having a REALLY tough time finding any scientific literature related to this. If you know biochemical and psychopathalogical stuff behind this, please send me information.

I have not orgasmed but yes i've had intense arousal during psychosis. I'm male. Arousal was completely independent of sexual thought. The docs generally see this as a tactile and/or somatic hallucination. This can happen independent of psychosis as well , look up persistent genital arousal syndrome/disorder. I've looked at this and what is suggested is either antidepressants , anti convulsives or antipsychotics. If your female , it is more common.