What is happening

I don't know if this is an issue or not.. but whenever I go to bed at night I sort of imagine characters from TV shows and have different scenarios with them. Sometimes I can just zap myself into their world and forget the world around me and hang out with them and what not. Sometimes I get hurt, sometimes we just talk, I don't talk out loud though, I just sort of talk to them in my head because that's how they communicate to me. I know it's not real, but when I'm imagining it, it feels real until I snap back into reality.

Then when I snap back into reality I start getting paranoid and scared of the dark, I get scared by any noise outside or shadows, sometimes I think someone is standing over my bed (I either sense something or I see something out of the corner of my eye.) I posted a thread a few days ago when I thought someone was in my house to kill my family and me and this happened at night as well.

And today, I was left home alone and I kept having to check behind me just in case someone was there to attack me. I kept seeing things walking around my house and when I went to check nothing was there. I can't have my back exposed, I must have it against something so I don't get paranoid and so that I can see my surroundings, but then I think that something could come out of the walls behind me and so I retreat back to my room and start panicking and looking out my window for something. I also get paranoid that people are 'out to get me' which is why I thought someone was in my house. I also find it hard to trust people sometimes, especially if I hardly know them or if I'm just not comfortable. I hardly go out anymore. I usually spend my time in my room by myself. I never want to get out of bed, I can't focus for long periods of time anymore, I'm too sensitive and get angry over the smallest things that my hands start shaking and I can't speak or type or anything!

I seriously need to see my psychiatrist SOON because I'm getting more annoyed that I can't see her yet or get my diagnosis, I think I'm seeing her Thursday but I can't be certain anymore because plans keep getting jumbled and it's getting on my nerves. I just need to talk to someone who has a better understanding of these things, you know?

I don't know but I think you're triggering yourself and I do hope you get in to see your doctor soon.

One thing to consider is sometimes if you start panicking if something is a symptom or not it starts to effect you like one. I'm sorry you're having a hard time. I think you have a combo of things going on that some you're so worried your freaking yourself out adn some is symptoms, but it's hard to say.