Homicidal Thoughts

Through the past few days all I can think about is killing and hurting my mom and brother. I keep thinking about weird conspiracies about my family and how they are going to hurt me. I need to get out of my house before I do something.

I dont know what to do. I'm thinking about calling the police on myself or going to the hospital. PS I have a history of psychosis and delusional thinking.

It may be best if you do go to the hospital if you feel like you're going to harm/kill your mom and brother.

Do you have a therapist or a pdoc? You are thinking clearly enough to know to seek help. Do that now, before something you regret later. be safe!

Yes I have a psychiatrist and counselor but I don't see them again for a while and I am off my meds and I don't want to take them.

You can call them though. Seems like a worthy reason.

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I'm generally not a fan of hospitals but if you want to hurt other people or yourself you need to go the hospital....imagine if you did what you were thinking not only would you be without your family you would likely be in jail forever and they would put you back on meds so you would have to live with that knowledge. To me that is my nightmare...just go the hospital.

Sometimes the hospital is the best option. Especially if you think you are a danger to someone and off meds. It is much harder for me to combat these types of thoughts when I'm off meds, but I understand not wanting to take them since the side effects seem/are excruciating at times. I'm really struggling with staying on meds right now, but this was a good reminder for me as to why it's important that I do so. I also see a T twice a week, and that helps me know if my thoughts are okay, and I've developed a trust in them and I know I cannot trust my feelings or thoughts sometimes, so it allows me to place more drastic decisions in their hands. Is there a way you can schedule appointments with a T more often. I hope you can find peace. This hits on one of my greatest fears, that I will hurt someone, especially off meds and then be forced on them and be in prison, having to deal with the emotional and physical consequences of my actions, even if at the time they were caused from mental instability.

I know what you're going through, although it's from a different disorder. I've often said I'm either suicidal or homicidal with small bits of normalcy inbetween. My homicidal thoughts are always extremely vivid - I can smell the blood, feel their skin, see their horrified expressions, etc.
I often have extreme urges along with it.
I would say go to the hospital. The police force have a long history of..."misunderstanding" mental illnesses.