[Victoria'smom]

So, my family came home after being alone with my husband. The stress made me believe they were trying to convince me to commit suicide. I couldn't ask them to move so I told my husband I was leaving him and called my parents telling them (frantically) that I'm going to go visit as soon as I can. I hurt myself (bad) because i was hurting my husband but couldnt tell him why. After a day of hell for him, knowing cut and down AP PRN until I passed out.

The next morning I got the 5 seconds of courage to ignore my head to explain why I was leaving. He deserved to know. I took another PRN while I cleaned up myself and showed him . He asked he could call my pdoc. I allowed it. Today I'm a bit better understanding that they're not trying to convince me to commit suicide. I still think they're talking about me.

Well my parents are now planing to Drive to pick me up (10 hrs each way). because I was frantic that something is seriously wrong between my husband and I. So I don't know how to tell them I shouldn't go. That I have mental illness and because of the stress I kinda thought/think things that are untrue and picking me up would not be the best idea.

[emeraldstars]

I think sometimes the hardest thing to do is to tell those we love not only that something is wrong but how wrong it really is. I am glad your hubby is there for you and supportive right now. I didn't have to tell my family my doctor did that when I was dx'd in the beginning. It is still a struggle and sometimes breathing is the hardest thing to do. Finding a calm in the storm might not be a bad idea and maybe the pdoc might have some ideas on how to do that. It sounds like you are on the other side of the worst of it and that takes strength to get through it. You sound like a strong person who is lucky to have such supportive people around you. Use that for your own benefit and keep them in the loop. I hope it gets even better very soon. Hugs.

[Victoria'smom]

I told my mom that I was just stressed. She wrote a big thing about how I should still come up and she has no idea how I deal with everything. A really nice letter, she said she doesn't want to know anything about my mental health but will accept whatever I say about it. I'm hoping to talk to my pdoc Monday.