[SunnySideOfHell]

Hi,
I just joined the forum because I'm trying to find new ways to cope. I wasn't really sure where to put this, as I struggle mostly with depression and OCD, but I've been diagnosed with psychosis a few times. Most of the time, I feel like I am worthless to people and my life is meaningless. I isolate and avoid people, and I hate society. I feel physically ill when I see "normal" members of society. I am a failure, and I can tell most people don't like me. They might feel bad for me, but they can tell I'm different. I am not interested in relationships of any kind with people; the only girl I've ever been in love with turned out to be like the rest. I recognize the fact that I am sexually/physically unattractive; the only thing that I enjoy sexually (at least 90% of the time) is imagining someone is humiliating/degrading me. I feel people are out to get me every day. I don't see or hear things, but I have obsessive thoughts every waking hour of every day, mostly about religion, because of my strict childhood. Sorry for the long post, I don't mean to complain, I just wanted to know if anyone knew of any specific type of therapy that might be helpful. I hope I didn't trigger anyone.

SunnySideOfHell

While I'm not sure what type of therapy would be best for you because different people have different preferences, I would suggest looking into getting an assessment by a psychologist as I think they would be well placed to advise on the best therapy to treat you and your issues.

All the best

*Willow*

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by SunnySideOfHell

Hi,
I just joined the forum because I'm trying to find new ways to cope. I wasn't really sure where to put this, as I struggle mostly with depression and OCD, but I've been diagnosed with psychosis a few times. Most of the time, I feel like I am worthless to people and my life is meaningless. I isolate and avoid people, and I hate society. I feel physically ill when I see "normal" members of society. I am a failure, and I can tell most people don't like me. They might feel bad for me, but they can tell I'm different. I am not interested in relationships of any kind with people; the only girl I've ever been in love with turned out to be like the rest. I recognize the fact that I am sexually/physically unattractive; the only thing that I enjoy sexually (at least 90% of the time) is imagining someone is humiliating/degrading me. I feel people are out to get me every day. I don't see or hear things, but I have obsessive thoughts every waking hour of every day, mostly about religion, because of my strict childhood. Sorry for the long post, I don't mean to complain, I just wanted to know if anyone knew of any specific type of therapy that might be helpful. I hope I didn't trigger anyone.

I am a huge fan of all things cbt...I had it for psychosis specifically which is hard to find but it's much easier to find for depression etc. We specifically addressed my tendency to isolate and have few friends my social anxiety in general etc and now I see the world in a different way. I have more friends tried dating the whole deal. One of the key things cbt addresses is the way we talk to ourselves. Let's say girl you used to like ignores you when you say hi...you might assume she thinks you're a loser somewhere in your subconscious thoughts but that might not be it at all...maybe you're just not her type. I personally like a Johnny Depp kind of guy so if a guy has short spikey hair as is common I'm kind of like meh you know. He could be a great guy but physical relationships need more than that. Anyway if you do cbt you develop alternate explanations like that where you don't necessarily have a problem so you don't feel like a loser. It sounds like you are resigned to being without people but studies have shown that isolation is often a precursor for psychosis so it might not be the best idea plus if you have to work or even shop for groceries you're going to have to interact with people at some level...

So basically cbt edits your inner voice making it into a supportive friend instead of your worst enemy...