[Sarah116]

Okay so a few days ago at church I was sitting with my hand on my chin and my sleeve went up. My Mom saw the marks and I said I fell, later on she talked with my dad he saw them then they both said "I do not think you fell I think you cut yourself." I said yes then they were a little upset they thought things were going good but they were not then we talked and all that and the next day at school my Counselour wanted to talk with me and we did. I did not ssay much and did not promise I would stop or anything, Counselor wants me to see a school Psychologist and meet another girl who cuts. Then when I got home my Mom took me to the doctors (the family doctor) and we talked she said that I should see my Psychiatrist again and gave me Zyprexa for now!!! , so excited and to see how it will help. I have not been allowed on the computer and have been closely watched. Well anyway I am thrilled and kept wondering if this was a dream or not. SO excited!!!

[agony007]

i am so happy for you sarah!! i hope the zyprexa helps you. i took zyprexa before now i am on seroquel. but anyway i am so glad you were able to talk to your parents about this situation and that they are getting you connected with the right people.

[Sarah116]

Thanks folks! I love you all! I want to thank you for giving me advice, supporting me on my downs and ups, every time! My Mom was just on the phone with my doctors and teachers and stuff. Well I am for the best from now on! I thank God for being with me and helping me and everything and all of you! God bless you all and help you fulfill your wishes and dreams! A forever & For always (((HUG))) - Sarah116

sarah im just starting taking zyprexa for my BPD, and i find it immensely helpful so far! I hope it helps you as well.

[Soidhonia]

Hello I am glad to hear that you are getting th ehep you need and you are happy to be in a recovery process. I hope the best for you in the future take care sincerely Soidhonia

[facey]

I remember back when I was living in a shared house full of women, one of the main people that looked after everyone asked me to reach up and change a light bulb.. I knew they knew I was cutting myself and I let them see when I reached up to change the bulb. (they knew because I was stupid enough to leave a knife laying about in my room covered in blood) They was actually quite understanding but said to make sure that I keep the knife and cuts clean.. for obvious reasons.

The place at the time I was staying at was a place for people that had problems and were looked after by the equivalent to social workers. (which I haven't had a good experience with throughout my life, being a foster child.. but these people were alright)

I'm quite sure one of the tenants (crystal) that I had quite a significant relationship with had a baby after she left as I saw her near on a year later (I know it's 9 months) at a shopping centre with a baby and it's something I'll never know if it's anything to do with me or not. (Another one of those unknowns I'll never know like if I ever see my parents I'll never know if it's them or not, well until I met them when I was 18)

Anyways, I was never given any medication but I did get appointments with psychiatrists lol.

Although when she left I did end up on drugs (mentioned in another thread loller) and after all that I was then prescribed drugs such as seroxerat (seratonin doodah) and valium for only 2 weeks.

I understand the cutting thing, it was a release to me, it let me feel better, I felt frustration and anger leave me when I cut myself.
I guess you could of at the time called me emo LOL and I suppose I was. Nowadays I have scarres on my arms and two 'important' ones which I cover up with my watch (funnily enough an expensive gold watch).

To be honest at the time I didn't care, whatever was is just is, now I just feel stupid and think there's no point anymore in doing that. But it's been a long time since and I believe existance is better than nothing

Sorry for going on a bit there, I seem to do that alot rofl!
I guess this particular thing was important to me also at the time and I don't mean to come across like I think I know everything because I know I don't really know anything!

I feel for ya sarah, I really do.