[Lillybird90]

My grip on sanity is slipping away.I am taking these meds but its still slipping away from me I think its too late my sanity is leaving me the things I do and sayy make nosens e anymore and people are afraid of me because of my diagnosis friends I used to have are avoiding me they think I am dangerous or something I keep thinking I need to set myself on fire but I wont its another one of those violent thoughts flooding my mind like iron claws digging into my brain and sucking away the last drops of my mental being.I am still crawling through the tunnel of nightmares that I was sucked into years ago I have never found my way out yet and the voices of the damned keep echoing back at me and driving me further into the depths of madness. its slipping away I am slipping away and everything is turning black all that will remain is the empty shell of a being who is consumed into the void of nonsensical mindlessness and stuck behind a never ending bricked up wall of their own insanity the wall my mind has built for me.there is no stability no grounds to stand on everything is crumbling into this void.

Lillybird

*Willow*

[transient]

Lillybird, I am so sorry you are going through this. Your words resonate with me, it sounds as if I had written them myself. In fact I felt this exact same way hardly 30 minutes ago.

I hope you are doing alright. Do you have a person you trust that you can talk to about this? We are here for you whether you do, or don't. Do you have a blog or diary where you can write these thoughts and feelings down, and get them out of your head? It might help a little

You have so much importance, please do not hurt yourself. Stay safe

[Lillybird90]

the blog idea really sounds like a good one thank you transient.thank you all for being here for me it helps me more than you know.thank you.

[Lillybird90]

thank you for the blog idea transient i just finished making one.the link to it is in my signature.if you want to check it out.