[jeppys]

I have spent the last seven months in constant psychosis. during this time I have questioned everything that has caught my attention, which is quite a bit. I have had too many coincidences, things come to fruition etc. for it to mean nothing.

the one thing that has stuck out is emotion is an infinite language. everything in the universe can be described by emotion. the same cannot be said for all spoken and written languages combined, including mathematics. a good example that came to mind is emotional identification of an object such as a lighter. a child gets burned playing with it. he then emotionally identifies that object (in an emotional recipe) with two parts pain and one part sadness and three parts this or that. it is a very specific identification for that individual. another childs experience is limited to watching his father light the grill with it. to that child it may mean yummy delicious food. so each childs experience with the lighter gives it a different meaning.

that being said, one day I was at a friends house and we started to talk about my psychosis. he asked me if I ever had a vision of me standing inside my eye looking out. the hair on my neck stood up and I got the tinglies because just two weeks prior I did have a vision of me standing inside my eye. I thought, this is impossible. he couldn't know that. only I knew about that. that made me question how he came into this information. he revealed to me that while he does not consider himself to be a psychic per se, he said that he can feel emotions emanating from people around him. well let's say for a second that we all emanate emotions (and consequently thoughts), who is doing the translating? we went on to practice being still and trying to guess what the other was thinking. so he picked an object to think of. I closed my eyes and was still. he said he was ready. a moment later in the blackness behind my eyes a pistol popped into my head. so I said, "pistol". he chuckled and said "that isn't what I thought of but I happened to look at the jar of money on the tv stand which I am saving to buy a pistol. so I ask again, if we identify objects in the world emotionally uniquely who is translating this information?

the good voice that I have calls what we did LISTENING. it is one of the few consistent messages I have had over the last two years. and when I say this entity knows everything about me I mean it. but the exchange of information between my friend and I suggests that it's not the individual subconscious and it listens to everyone entirely. you may call it god or whatever. I can tell you how I feel. the idea of god is an unconditional love. the voice tells me that LOVE IS LISTENING. let's say all seven billion of us went to the magical place called heaven. heaven would be very different for everyone. our opinions and emotional identification of this place is what we use to describe our idea of heaven. so a child would think of willy wankas chocolate factory while yours may be enjoying a corona on a beach. in order for any god to entertain our individual ideas of heaven he would have to listen to us completely. the voice also says that there is no devil and that bad and good are unhelpful and unforgiving ways of describing people and things. he says there is listening to him and there is listening to ourselves. what would happen if we only listened to this entity? we would embody listening and ultimately love because we would always know exactly what to say and do to love every single person on the planet. if you tell someone a truth that they are not ready to hear then you are not listening. this voice refuses to answer many of my questions because he said that I do not want to know the answer yet. other times he will guide to the answer displayed in life events that perfectly illustrate what he wants to say......only life events give his message far more meaning emotionally than simply saying something.

all in all, my psychosis has opened my eyes to a world I never knew existed. interestingly the more I think I learn the less I know. thanks for listening.

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

Originally Posted by jeppys

the one thing that has stuck out is emotion is an infinite language. everything in the universe can be described by emotion. the same cannot be said for all spoken and written languages combined, including mathematics. a good example that came to mind is emotional identification of an object such as a lighter. a child gets burned playing with it. he then emotionally identifies that object (in an emotional recipe) with two parts pain and one part sadness and three parts this or that. it is a very specific identification for that individual. another childs experience is limited to watching his father light the grill with it. to that child it may mean yummy delicious food. so each childs experience with the lighter gives it a different meaning.

Dang! That's an awesome outlook for language! I find languages interesting - I definitely find what you said intriguing. I think you're bang-on, as well. We all associate different things to different objects! An emotional language... man, that's awesome; gonna remember that.

That was all really ... deep. xD Best way I can describe it. :P Thanks for sharing.

[jeppys]

thanks Zwangsstörung. as much thought as I have given this, there is so much to learn and sift through.