clock work people in my head

Sorry i havent been around
i hope you are all well
i dont think i have a lot of time my mind is being controlled by people who are in my head
i can feel them moving around in there
there clock work people tinker toy people
they enslave us all they have took over the world

i tired to get them out of my head by cutting them out
but it didnt work

Hi Asphyxia. I've been waiting for you to return. I don't remember if you said whether or not you were seeing a dr. or therapist. If so, does it help in giving you a break from the voices?

I wished there was something I could say or do to make you feel better.

i see my dr tomorrow (Monday) i can tell her about the people in my head
i need to get them out i need a drill but we don't have one we need to buy one
my husband will not leave me out of his site at the moment am sitting up in bed and my husband is trying to sleep with the light on i don't think he will get much sleep
my fault
my old pdoc has left he doing another job now i see my new one when i see him in a month or so
Am waiting for Therapy

I think you should tell them tomorrow about the people and also tell them about trying to cut them out. I think it's important.

I wish you well.

Please don't hurt yourself. You go through enough pain as it is. Why let the voices have more power over you?

I'm glad you're going to the dr. Maybe she can help you in a different way than before.

Do you mediate in some way? Maybe you could find some distractions like going to the movies or reading or just getting out of the house.

Please let me know how things go with your dr. app.

i have a mission that i must do cant tell anyone

That never turns out well. I really think you should tell your doc your mission tomorrow.

Hopefully you can tell your dr. She's there to help you.

Yes please tell your doctor.

yesterday the people in my head made me go to the train station they where going to make me jump the tracks but i managed to get control
the people in my head then made me go to the bridge where my step dad jumped from when he died but before i could jump i got in control again
then while i was in control i went to the crisis team told them what happened they called my husband the police came and my husband came and we got a lift home by the police
my husband took me to the drs i got meds and told to take more Valium
am surprised that the crisis team didnt do more
my husband now has my bus pass so i cant go anywhere with out him
am scared i keep seeing my step dad
my husband is sleeping in the living room while am on my pc voices are loud
i cant take my meds as its too early in the morning to take them
...i dont know what to do i feel so bad that i upset my whole family
the people in my head stopped me from doing my mission i cant tell anyone about it but i got to do it soon

How did things go with you dr, A? I hope she gave you some reassurances.

I posted my comment to ask you how things went at the dr. before I saw this one.

I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. He wouldn't want you to jump or hurt yourself in any way. I wish the crisis team could have helped you too. Maybe it's for the best right now that you don't have your bus pass. Did you talk to your dr. about your secret mission? I don't think it's good to keep your plans for a secret mission to yourself, especially if it's going to put your life in danger. I think of you as a friend and I'm really concerned about your well being.

Can you send me a private message?

-Asphyxia- I hope you tell your doc your plans. I want you to stay safe. I'm glad that you were able to get control.

i pm'ed you Manxcatwomen

things are hard at the moment but am not going to do my mission
not listening to what the voices are say tomorrow am going to a hearing voices group
hopefully it helps

I got your pm and thanks for sending it, A. It looks like things are improving. It always help to be around others who are going through the say experience we are.

Keep me informed.

i was browsing another website and found you posted the same thred. i can asure you ive had voices tell me i have people in my body. i suggest buying coal tar soap and a scented candle, and make blocks using large paper sheets with soap and wax and place them around the house. spread wax on you ears and jaw. Theres no need to cut, you can focus control at your temples and push away with your mind to kick the sound away.

Went to the hearing voices group yesterday it was helpful
the voices have been loud the people in my head are trying to get control again
but i cant go anywhere because my husband locks the door
cant run off as he makes me go everywhere with him
am not allowed out the house on my own
scared they will make me hurt my husband

I'm so sorry, A. I was thinking about you last night and was wondering how things were going. Is there a group you can go to every day. I use to do that. Is your niece staying with you? You shouldn't have to be alone. What about your dr? Can you see her again soon?

The voices are getting worse so just keep in mind that you need help as soon as possible. No matter what the voices say, don't hurt your husband or yourself. You deserve much better than that. If there's anything that will get rid of them like med, place get it from your dr. If it drowns out the voices, it will be worth it. Of course don't take anything without your drs help. I hate to take any kind of meds. In fact there have been times when I refused to and my physical and mental health got much worse. So I'm taking them. I've also had to go to psychiatric hospitals before. It gave me a much needed break from everything going on.

Please get some professional help so at least you can take a break. Think of it that way.

I hope you feel better soon.

I called a crisis hotline and am at a crisis house at the moment am about to head to bed I might be staying here a few nights don't know yet the people in my head wants me to go to the train station again am scared

I think you should stay at the crisis house (at least over the weekend) and be around other people. Maybe you can get some rest there. I can't imagine how tired you get, A.

I would like to stay but that's up to the staff here they are going to talk about it My husband is going to bring me my meds and more clothes see what happens

I hope you get to stay at least for the weekend. You deserve a rest.

Take care.

Am home now i have to go to my mothers tomrrow thats if its not raining heavy here ( the uk had storms ) my husband will be with me ... going to my mums is stressful she believes that my mental health is attention seeking God knows what she is going to say to me about last Monday
hopefully its still stormy here