[A18793715]

I should start off by saying I've contacted a therapist who has listed psychosis and major mental illness under his topics but he hasn't called me back to set up a date. But at the same time, I'm extremely paranoid about getting a therapist. I'm scared I'll back out at the last minute. It freaks me out at the thought of telling someone everything and knowing they're keeping notes and remembers everything. I feel like this makes me very vulnerable and that something bad will happen. My voice keep threatening me and this whole thing is making everything worse (I'm not currently on meds. They don't work) and I don't know what to do. I'm scared what will happen if I don't find someone to talk to (my only friend I told everything to told me she couldn't handle me anymore and asked me to stop talking about personal stuff) but I feel like something bad will happen if I do find someone to talk to. So I'm going crazy because I don't even know what to think or do.

[Tnao]

If you are in the middle of a psychotic episode, you should probably see a psychiatrist instead of a therapist. That's what I did and it took a year but I eventually got better. I was seeing a therapist but was really paranoid about her and I think she did more harm than good to be honest. Also my psychiatrist wouldn't let me see a therapist while I was psychotic even though I requested it. Have no idea why. I wish you all the best.

[A18793715]

I have auditory hallucinations 24/7 and my doctor is the one who gave me the therapists information.

[Tnao]

Oh right. Then you should see one. I wouldn't worry about them having information on you. It won't be shared with anyone. You are safe with a therapist. There's nothing to worry about. I know it's easier said than done but you can trust your therapist.

[junkDNA]

just wanna say dont trust anyone until you meet them and decide for urself. not all therapists are trustworthy. just bc someone is a therapist doesnt mean they are safe and deserve ur trust off the bat

[newtus]

Originally Posted by junkDNA

just wanna say dont trust anyone until you meet them and decide for urself. not all therapists are trustworthy. just bc someone is a therapist doesnt mean they are safe and deserve ur trust off the bat

that reminds me of my old therapist

[doyoutrustme]

Don't think of it right away as someone you are totally emotionally naked with. Trust can be earned at your own pace and you control what is said or not said.

Originally Posted by doyoutrustme

Don't think of it right away as someone you are totally emotionally naked with. Trust can be earned at your own pace and you control what is said or not said.

I agree. I have recently started seeing a T. It's like when you go swimming until you're confident in the water: you don't just dive in, you dip your toe in first, then get in and wade about in the shallow end, before working up to swimming in deep water. So far, T is proving trustworthy, so each week I wade a bit further into the pool. It is scary, but hopefully worth it

*Willow*