Roll Call 36

wow erti. id hate to be mentally ill and there too

Wow...that is extreme....

Picked up some rooibos chai and salted caramel syrup today...it's a nice fall combo...

getting paranoid tonight. having some voices. i hate when night falls...

I slept with a light on for quite some time after my first break....just a small light but it was so much worse with no light....

thanks. i swear i see and hear ghosts and hear voices talking to me. they are trying to tell me something.

I'm the same way when night fall.
keep telling myself it's not real. Sometimes it's hard to tell when something is real and something isn't. It's probably not good that I'm watching a show about paranormal stuff but yeah... I feel for you.

I'm scared of the dark... lol I sleep with the lights on every night. Not sure if it's due to my psychosis or if I just have a phobia of the dark.

my mom is really putting the pressure on me to lose weight for my sisters wedding in 4 months. im about 145 pounds right now. all i had to eat today was 1 slice of old pizza and 1 salted pretzel. we went to target today. thats where i got the pretzel...from the concession stand and then just looked at me. the later on the phone she said "you know...you didnt have to eat that pretzel. you need to cut back on carbs". i said "i only had like 1 or 2 things to eat today?!". she said "maybe...MAYBE you could lose 20 pounds in 4 months maybe. i dont know". i said "im trying really hard you know". said "i dont believe you". that hurt me. cause i am.

I'm 25 and sleep with the light on quite a bit, thought it was just me!

i sleep witth the lights on too.

I sleep in the dark. I can't sleep with lights on, it keeps my mind too stimulated.

Yeah I don't sleep too well with the lights on, can't really get used to it! I'm super sensitive at night and hear lots of noises, everything just intensifies for some reason and I get very scared! Sucks.

My best friend is the same way... it has to be pitch dark in the room in order for her to sleep. She says she feels safest in the dark. She also has to be on the side of the bed that's against the wall... it makes her feel safe due to the sexual abuse she suffered from her mom's boyfriend when she was 11. Her and I share that in common but respond in different ways from our past. I'm not even sure why I'm scared of the dark. I was younger than she was when the sexual abuse happen to me though. I just find it interesting.

my sister has to sleep in pitch black to sleep. thats just her.

It's a great anti-epileptic, and is also used as a mood stabilizer, similar to Lamictal... and also for migraines

ugh i cant sleep

I'm not sure how I slept last night, I seem to remember being awake for quite a while from 2am but I did get back to sleep around 5ish until 7:30.

It was very windy, so I think that's what might have been keeping me awake.

goodmornings to all! I have a date today!

I sleep with the (adjoining) bathroom light on.

Yay for your date neil w!

I have a confession. I may have some psychosis in addition to my main dx, but my main dx is not sz or psy . Its been determined recently that i have Dissociative Identity Disorder. It realy seems to fit, and explains a lot about me.
Its possible that i also have some psychosis ~ jury's still out on that one. I'm a little blown away by this, but i also think it rings true. It makes sense. I hope you guys arent mad. I still really like this forum.

Bet youre still welcome here gr3tta...

and congrats on having a better defining diagnosis.

I'm not mad...well in the angry sense anyway...

I know I can relate to elements of DID as well just not the full blown part where a personality can take over...it's a lot like my inner voices.

I hope you can get the right kind of care for that dx....

I've come across DID in some of my readings but I can't remember much about it...

I'm not mad (well apart from in SometimesP's sense of the word )... we've all got our own problems & we can all help each other regardless of what they are.

i finally got some sleep but it was very choppy and i just kept waking up. plus thunderstorms came through so i woke up early early early. only got 6 hours of sleep.