Confused about life

Hi all,

I just want to point out I don't have any diagnosis, have been waiting a while for psych referral but I think what I experience would be described as psychosis by medical professionals, so I'm posting wondering if anyone has experienced this.

Although I'm not getting so many "symptoms" the last week or so, I constantly feel completely confused about everything and playing over and over it in my mind trying to make sense of the world. The last few months I believe I was shown things from someone living in another dimension, relating to a prophecy about the world ending and I was his harbinger. I wasn't religious, but was chosen because I had insight, and he showed me the truth. I was also shown that the government has been altering peoples' DNA to suppress the expression of a particular gene that allowed people to see the truth, I was shown the name for the gene and if I had the money or motivation to take it further, I would have been able to prove it I am sure.

Anyhow, that's not the issue. I can't get over this confusion and feeling that things are not right, everything triggers me. I hate the way people live and get angry all the time that people are so mind controlled and don't see it, I guess I feel completely alone in the world. But at the same time, I wouldn't want anyone to know the things I know. I wish I knew the answer to make things right but I really don't have a clue. I don't even want to say "I" when referring to myself, it makes me angry, because I feel like I am connected to everything else and there is no I or me. Has anyone experienced this? Were you diagnosed as psychotic. On one hand I want someone to tell me that's what it is and they can make it go away, but on the other I would not believe someone telling me that because everyone is mind controlled and of course can't see what I've seen.

It does sound like it might be psychosis....I'm glad you're seeing a doc about as they will be able to help you and they certainly know more than some random person on he Internet....

I thought I was the third horseman of the apocalypse at one point so there are some similarities.....

Sounds like delusions. I think I might have a delusion about my own importance or something but nothing specific like being a famous person or anything. People always react to me as if I'm behaving like I'm overly important which throws me off because I don't feel like I am.