Roll Call 42

Nobody's on your back Newtus, we just see a change in your behavior. I think people are just trying to help you, that's all.

im slightly angry because i dont like getting multiple posts about others medical opinion of my diagnosis.

to answer your question. i do have a problem leaving the house. yea of course you all know i have extreme paranoia and sometimes hallucinate. but ever since my birthday ive been feeling more positive about life (in general not overall). i feel a little better with life because im finally in school again and i had started volunteering and i was doing something with my life for a few months with the volunteering.

of course i have a problem with leaving the house. do you guys not pay attention to when i say "im going to be home alone for the next # of days". i dont always tell you guys every single thing in my life. i tell you the medium to big sized things and then make convo on the side.

this seems like its getting heated and i dont know why. not sure why you are getting so defensive newtus. no ones telling you that you arent schzophrenic or whatever. they are just giving opinions. no one is diagnosing you here

honestly what other treatment would i get besides meds and therapy? i already dont get half of what i need. i tell my therapist everything i can with the 30 min im in there with my dad watching and then my pdoc with the 10 min i have and my dad there too.

You took the words right out of my mouth.

im slightly defensive because i cant tell how everyones trying to communicate something to me. i just see a bunch of posts about me. a forum is hard to communicate with because i cant see anyones face.

Ok, I'm glad you're feeling better. We're just stating opinions. If you trust your docs there's nothing to worry about. I'm sorry if u feel ganged up on.

i dont think anyone is judging you or coming down on you or ganging up on you although i assume thats how u might feel. i think people are just concerned and want the best for you. but if u feel that their opinions are wrong then thats ok. no one is forcing you to do anything about it. i guess it was just something they wanted you to consider

i trust my pdoc really good as far as meds go because ive been on all the meds except for clozaril for APs at least and i pretty much know how they will work because ive been on my meds before for long periods of time. my pdoc says my therapist is for talking out my symptoms more. and she talks to him. or so she says idk

sorry then.
idk if i ever told you guys this before but theres a few things i take extremely seriously. one of them is my personal medical and mental health history/diagnoses.

I take mine seriously too. I didn't mean any offense, I was just trying to help. Anyways, I hope you get to feeling better sooner rather than later.

I'm so full...Ugh.

I see my therapist tomorrow and I'm for sure going. Then this weekend I'm going Christmas shopping. My poor son has been bored to death since school has been out. His best friend just got engaged so he barely sees him. He still goes running everyday and lifts weight 3 times a week. I'm very proud of him.

i think im one of those people - along with a few others here - that you have to know me in real life to actually KNOW me. ive answered questionaires at the clinic and in hospitals about myself. you cant mess those up.

my feet are so cold but ummm all my clean socks are at the other apartment. oops.

How is the new place working out then...is it nice to be away from the old place?

spent the day with my stepmom baking food for their bowling banquet today. Pretty cool getting out of the house... well my house lol.

Sounds fun what did you guys make?

well im not in the new apartment yet. i moved all the furniture and stuff there on wednesday. i have like nothing in here cept my internet and my bed. lol. im officially moving in for good tomorrow. my mom is coming to help

i am very excited to be moving. i think its really gonna be great. even tho it is further away to work and to see T. i will make it work. i usually only work like 3 day a week

Yes..Internet and bed....good to see you have the priorities straight...socks would have been nice though

Fudge, peanut butter fudge, cupcakes, devil eggs, and bake beans.

haha yes priorities!!!! yesterday my coach was helping me pack some stuff to put in the truck and she shoved my clean work uniform in the box. i had to be at work early this morning so last night i was like umm wheres my uniform. she said i dont know. i said im going to have to go look. i texted her when i got there and was like "it was in a box....." she was like hmmm what box. i texted " the box YOU PUT IT IN!!!" lol

Whoa that's a lot...

my hands are covered in cat scratches

i just want to walk away from all this right

Watching the Colbert report. Love this show!