[newtus]

no matter how much i come here im still alone.

anyone else like me -
you know people will hurt you and you dont know what to do about it but your desperate?

is there some sort of cycle to sz like in bipolar? prob not moods.

[Atypical_Disaster]

I've wondered if there's a cycle of it somehow, I don't know how to explain it but yeah.. I've thought that before.

[faerie_moon_x]

I feel alone a lot. Even at home I feel alone. Once I start feeling alone it can snowball into thinking everyone is against me. I've always struggled with this alone feeling but it's worse now when I have it since I have a husband and kids. Like you think you shouldn't feel alone any more, but I do.

I've always had trouble making friends and also keeping them. I get very suspicious of people and I don't trust them. But, I think that's because I was bullied and also ditched and backstabbed by so many people, too. But, the same issues keep coming up in my life. Even now at work I try to make friends with co-workers and 90% of them treat me like I'm some sort of alien or have a "weirdo" stamp tattooed on my forehead. It just feels like high school all over again.

The smaller percent of people I feel are okay with me but also are aware that I'm different.

I just always feel different. I always feel I don't really fit in anywhere at all. It's hard.

[mimi2112]

I feel just like this, Dark. It seems I need people" to bring me out of myself" if that makes sense. Yes having a b.f. helps, even though he's 500 miles away at work, but since my bad breakdown about a year ago, I feel really emotionally dependent and I was questioned by him about that. That he thinks I am being enabled.. but when I think about this flippin illness and I compare it to physical disease, how is it any different then when a person's had a car wreck and needs help from others to get well? How is it different then when a person needs help with their physical disabilities on and off throughout life? I feel I will need help from others for the rest of my life, and is that supposed to mean I am being enabled? I am lonely I think, simply because I am misunderstood by so many. I have always had a small circle of friends, but that circle is turning into a dot.

[lil-angel-wings]

I can be in a crowded room with a ton of people I know personally and still feel as though I'm the only one in the room. Like there is nothing I could say or do that would matter one bit to any one individual there. And even if it did it wouldn't matter.

[pastel moon]

I already feel less alone after reading others' struggles.

This is something that I've always wrestled with too. Even when I'm around people who I know. I live alone with my for legged friend,a cat named pumpkin. I really wish I had a better half. Someone to help me get outside my head more often because these nights are wearing on me. It's no way to live.

[Jolisse]

I get lonely, because I don't trust people. I've been burned many times and rather be by myself, then deal with fake friends.

[Angelique67]

Except for my one friend who I hardly ever talk to, I'm completely alone. It scares me how physically alone I am in this geographical area. I mean there are only strangers, or people who don't like me, such as the landlord and neighbors. I'm very worried about it. I hate the feeling. It wasn't so bad when I was young, and could walk, and work, and had a cat. But now it's hell.