[Swaggyfishsticks]

I'm worried that I may have schizophrenia. Whenever I listen to a song I have this thought in my head, not a hallucination, that tries to tell me that I wrote the song, I can try to argue with it using logic. Like how I wasn't alive when it was written, but it won't stop. It tries to tell me I was involved in the creation of something and I have to argue with it. Anytime I find out about a type of delusion, I start to experience it. Yesterday I went to the store, and my mind was trying to tell me that people were watching and judging me. I know it isn't true, but I'm worried that someday I might believe it is. I can't do this. It's getting hard to fight. This started a month ago, and won't stop. I don't like being delusional, it's horrible. I'm going to my psychiatrist tomorrow, and I'll talk about it then. It's just really freaking me out. I don't want to be crazy. These thoughts are killing me. I'm a 17 year old dude. Does this sound like schizophrenia to you? I'm really scared.

[Swaggyfishsticks]

I also get angry easily when there's too much noise. It's also not just music.

[Sometimes psychotic]

So first no one here can dx you so I'm glad you're seeing your pdoc and talking about it. There are a few things it's kind of like, one of them is called delusional disorder but there are a number of possibilities with psychosis some of them temporary...there is a phase called the prodrome that happens first where you get milder symptoms and it often responds to low doses of medicine. There are also some psych meds which can cause these symptoms like adhd meds or Wellbutrin. Street drugs can do this too. Generally they want to rule out anything organic as well such as a brain tumor or other damage. So basically it could be physical or mental at this point and you'll want to get a complete work up.

[insilence]

before i experienced my schizo-effective symptoms, i knew a guy who went around claiming to have told famous musicians to write their songs, I dont get that, but i do see my own experiences sometimes in songs. maybe its a hic-up in your relationship logic?

[Verity81]

Are you so worried about psychosis symptoms that you are latching on to every intrusive thought you have? I don't have symptoms of psychosis but I have had periods of intense OCD like intrusive thoughts that I know are not true but I would cling onto them and ride that train right to intense anxiety.
Deff speak to your pdoc and in the meantime it may help to not cling to these thoughts. Don't judge them or add more worry thoughts on top. Let them flow in, observe the thought and flow out like they are on a conveyer belt. it might help you to research mindfulness and techniques to take you out of your head and into the experience of now.
Thing is worrying about symptoms won't change them but will only add to the intensity of your distress.


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