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does anyone like that show "Forever"? i rarely watch tv and dont like crime shows but this show just reeled me in.

I get nightly depression and to combat it I write poetry. I think I'll start to post it in here. Here's my poem for tonight.

Some people will box you in
They will trample and trod
Because they want you at their whim
They will poke and prod
Because they want you to have no kin
They will find your one weakness
And they will squeeze it tight
They will do so until you bleed
But whatever your plan do not fight
Hold tight and take lead
Noble simplicity and quiet grandeur
That is your path to eudaimonia
Walk along it and never meander
Then will you find your soul in harmonia

im eating ice cream in bed

i have to work tomorrow

i see T on tuesday

my sister liked my new aprtment and she met my cat. he is a good boy

Thank you I learned a new word...

Nice! This is what I've been listening to today...back into world music again...

It's supposed to warm up a bit tomorrow....finally.

Oh you're lucky...it's going to be terrible here all week.

the weather here has been warmer than usual... It's been extremely rainy here as well. I'm just glad that it isn't snow. Though according to the weather report it's suppose to get cooler with a chance of snow.

I went and layed down a bit. But I can't sleep so I'm gonna have a cup of tea and probably watch Netflix.

I've decided tomorrow I'm starting fresh. I have a whole bunch of phone calls to make and need to start cleaning again...

Yeah it's supposed to get up to 37 tomorrow. But yes we do get extreme cold fronts here in the winter. I can't think of what their called, lol.

Omg Erti, that metformin...Will the horrible side effect go away?

The baby kitten is sure more cuddly. My cat tiger isn't letting him try and nurse on him much anymore. So I think it's making the kitten want more cuddles from me. He's growing up...

my mom thinks i have a sterile abscess on my arm. its in the spot where i got my first invega shot. we started doing it in my hip/butt after that first shot bc i had a bad reaction to the one in my arm. now im all worried and she wants me to go to the doctor. i hate doctors. i got that shot in my arm in like april or may. its a big hard lump thats hot to the touch and hurts. it was like this a few months ago but went away on its own. so idk.

Hmmm, I know you hate doctors but I think you should get that checked out.

For me the diarrhea comes and goes. I managed to get a somewhat solid bowel movement. It's gotten better but if it continues I would mention it to your doctor.

My son loves winter. He's off today but just left to go get donuts...I'm like, you're crazy, lol. He said I just hate that it's warming up, lol. He's so sweet. He just called, I don't like donuts so he's getting me a red velvet cupcake.

I haven't had caffeine for 4 days or so. I'm feeling that tea....

Thanks.

thanks...i prob will...its just gross...like...pus in my arm...ew

its not red or anything and it doesnt look like a giant pimple. its under the skin. but its kinda big

I've been watching really intense sad and disturbing movies lately. Like I watched requiem from a dream last night. And I've watched really triggering movies too lately. I wish I knew why I did that. My old therapist had a psychological term for it, but I can't remember it.

But tonight what women want was on. Was nice to watch something light hearted...

Today I finally cleaned my house and got it 80% clean so I feel better about that. I also took a nice shower and washed my hair. Tomorrow I'm going on a campus tour to check out a really good college for my BS in clinical pathology, I'm excited and nervous.

Also not hallucination too badly, but was a bit dissociative yesterday, but I'm feeling better today. Been practicing mindfulness and meditation to keep irregular emotions under control.

wow im now 15!

Happy birthday Bean!

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday, Bean!

Happy bday...hope you have a great day