Roll Call 52

im sorry about ur day going bad

Today was a good day. Kids were happy and bellys are full.

Hi guys, I've just finished catching up on whats been happening today. I had an almost 12 hour day at church. It was amazing and exhausting.

That was a really poetic way to talk about your symptoms.

No matter if you fall, you can get back up. Stay away from the dealers, they're not going to help. I know how you feel about youself is personal, but you're a great person, don't let anyone tell you differently. Not even yourself, cause I'll beat you up.

That is always the best!

i think im having an episode. cant tell. my dads home. cant let bim see m like this. cant talk tonight. sorry. gotta goto bed. sleep this off. psychosis is coming out i think. sorry. sorry. sorry.

episodes is coming more and more and more. idk why. coming all the time more and more. quicker and quicker and quicker. hell idk why why why. im taking my meds now...forum culture.

I feel so miserable I just can't even go into it.

When I'm at my darkest I stroll around town talking to family or friend with phone. There's something about the scenery and serenity, which evaporates my gruesome contemplates.

Thanks, Ody. I can't do that because I can't really walk but I used to take walks when I felt sad. I wish I still could.

I'm sorry you're feeling so badly right now, I don't know the reason that's responsble, but I hope it will pass.

Luv ya!

My sister just snuck out to the house of a boy who used to bully the **** out of me.

Needless to say, Im not happy.

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I understand your unhappiness. I hope she is ok and that she drops him quickly.

She's ok.

Just stubborn.

He's a ****, dropped out of high school for drug dealing. Used to bully me when I was younger, like in middle school. I just don't like the guy. Hope he has changed in some way and is better now, because I sure as hell know my sister is immature.

I'm worried he will hurt me again, or hurt her.

last night was bad.
i fear more to come.
because my anxiety is creeping in this morning. happy ive been taking my APs now lately.

woke up early today no school til tomorrow <3333333333

Good morning everyone ^^

I gave a friend 400 dollars and he gave it to the dealer and said he will give me 180 back with the stuff but the * drove away saying she would bring it in a mcdonalds bag and took the money.

Idk if he can pay me back

We all got screwed over. The guy was crying because of his life in this.

I just did it on the side.

I did coke and all i felt was focus and calm. I expected that but not really. It stopped the paranoia like the ritalin does.

Now I'm just going to continue helping myself with my mental health.

They found my roommates needles, everything. He's really upset it's just a big mess.

no symptoms today had a little bit last night but im good so far <33333

Seeing t today. Probably for the best. The decrease in zyprexa is not going well. See my podcast next week and we will be discussing the increase again. I don't know why they feel the need to change something that works. It's like they fear losing clients so it's easier to screw with the meds.

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Please be careful Tweaky. We enjoy having you here

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If your t is late do you insist on making up the time at the end of the session? My t is always late for my sessions and it makes me crazy (er)

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no, not really. but i do tell him that it makes me angry.