[faerie_moon_x]

hi guys,

Okay so everyone has been there. You start talking about something and you become filled with passion. You might go on an on a bit (or a lot) and then you feel like you said your peace. It could be about anything. I think everyone does this from time to time.

But, so, I feel I've been doing this a lot. And I know I've done it in the past here of course. About various things.

But, you know, I feel like an outsider so much of the time. I have weird and complicated problems. So much of the world people act like it's black or white. You eat less you lose weight (unless your on meds or have a health issue or x number of factors.) Or if you have mental health problems you see a therapist. (Unless you're too poor.) Or you take meds you get better. (Unless you don't or can't afford them.) Like, the world isn't black and white and I tend to suddenly be flying off the handle.

Like I purposefully make accounts on random news sites to rant at people. And it's dumb. Because I know it's pointless and probably feeding trolls. But, you know, it's like suddenly this drive. And then I feel emotionally obsessed with the whole thing, maybe for days at a time, like a thought loop.

I used to be better at holding it in. I don't know why it feel so overwhelming now? Does anyone else have this happen? It makes me feel horrible.

I have never really had a need to rant, but when I do, I enjoy it. I think there is something deep seated in your mind that that is causing this needless unending rant. Do you feel like you aren't being listened to? Or is it a need just to have a voice regardless of the subject? Or it could be that you just have a lot going on and your mind knows that you need to get it out. I don't really see ranting as a bad thing, as long as you are careful about how you do it.

[faerie_moon_x]

I always have a lot in my mind. My racing thoughts are pretty constant. I never know silence.

Like, I feel like my thoughts push me. I think it's some sort of combination with pressured speech and the racing thoughts. My mind leaps fast from one thing to the next thing. But it's usually about stuff that has been hurtful to me and people acting ignorant about it.

For example, if people say things like "you need this, it's easy to get it." But it's not easy. It's easy for them because maybe they have a good job or a different situation, but for me it's something I work really hard for and still can't get what I need. That's when it comes out. And then they say things like "that's an excuse." And it makes me blow up. That's an example. It could be about anything, but the same type of situation.

But, I used to be able to bite back and just keep quiet and know that other people don't understand and won't try. But now, I still understand that, but I have this driving force to try to make them see from someone else's point of view... and the urge is much stronger and I feel my will power isn't as strong any more.

[ofthevalley]

I have similar overwhelming feelings about things. I've actually left Facebook because I can't always keep quiet and I know it's not going to change anything except maybe ruin friendships.

[newtus]

nice to see you here! just wanted to say that!

[faerie_moon_x]

Originally Posted by newtus

nice to see you here! just wanted to say that!

Thanks, Newtus.