[WaifLikeLilly]

Hi, my psychosis is getting much more intense and constant. I'm feeling really scared, and I had to wait three weeks to see a therapist, who only said she thinks I need intensive cognitive therapy, and referred me to someome else, who I have to wait even longer to see. I know that I should be grateful that it's not longer, I'm just feeling so frustrated, and I want to help it before it gets even worse. Should I try and wait, or should I go to my GP, and tell them that It's really starting to get worse?

Last night I went to see a show with my friend, luckily I told him about my psychosis, and I was seeing horrible things throughout it. Then we had to walk about two miles home, and I was even worse then. The worst was when a car went by, and as it did, it lit up this horrible monsterous thing dressed in white, with blood all down it's front. It was hiding in the bushes, and jumped out at me. I screamed and really got upset,but my friend was so supportive, luckily.

[Door2015]

Originally Posted by WaifLikeLilly

Hi, my psychosis is getting much more intense and constant. I'm feeling really scared, and I had to wait three weeks to see a therapist, who only said she thinks I need intensive cognitive therapy, and referred me to someome else, who I have to wait even longer to see. I know that I should be grateful that it's not longer, I'm just feeling so frustrated, and I want to help it before it gets even worse. Should I try and wait, or should I go to my GP, and tell them that It's really starting to get worse?

Last night I went to see a show with my friend, luckily I told him about my psychosis, and I was seeing horrible things throughout it. Then we had to walk about two miles home, and I was even worse then. The worst was when a car went by, and as it did, it lit up this horrible monsterous thing dressed in white, with blood all down it's front. It was hiding in the bushes, and jumped out at me. I screamed and really got upset,but my friend was so supportive, luckily.

Im glad you have a friend to support you. If it were me, I'd try to get seen earlier. If the therapist doesn't properly understand, then she may not have put enough urgency in the referral.

[Crescent Moon]

I know things work differently in England.. but here in the U.S., during an episode like that we could go to the Emergency Room at a hospital and get sent pretty quickly to an inpatient psychiatric hospital where we could then get treatment - medications or whatever - to calm all of that down.

Can you get in to see the GP on an emergency basis - and will the GP hurry things along?

No one should have to suffer like you're suffering.

If I were you I would see a doctor before I my mind would be my opponent every moment. I would sink so far in psychosis that I wouldn't know this.

[Sometimes psychotic]

Depends if you want meds or not...for me I had cbt and meds. Let's say cbt has a 10% effect well meds are more like a 95-98% reduction in both hallucinations and delusions. I think therapy helps but meds help more, personally I would ask the GP for a low dose of antipsychotic.

[WaifLikeLilly]

Thank you all very much! I have decided to go to my GP first thing on Monday. And I think I will ask for medication... I am slightly nervous, because I have never had medication before, and my dad has been telling me really bad things about medication. (But he has never actually been on them.) Thanks again for your opinions, it's very much appreciated.

[insilence]

im on clozapine, look up the molecule makup its mainly nitrogen. Im trying to get off the medication as it causes me heart pains. But if you want to try, get a bunch of bags of frozen vegetables, something with peas, alfafa, etc..and i would suggest drink 3-8 liquified vegi shakes a day to build protien nitrogen. I know im right about this because i did a schiz study at the University and they were researching protiens. Also to handle the dermal level, get shampoo with zinc pyrthione 1%(NOS-zinc-SON) and take bubble baths, being sure to submerge your ears for 5-15 minutes. Then put the shampoo on your legs, hips, armpits and neck, rub in like its aloe vera. I find nitrogen is the main blocker for hearing voices, and possibly calming you down.

[lawrenman]

Originally Posted by WaifLikeLilly

Thank you all very much! I have decided to go to my GP first thing on Monday. And I think I will ask for medication... I am slightly nervous, because I have never had medication before, and my dad has been telling me really bad things about medication. (But he has never actually been on them.) Thanks again for your opinions, it's very much appreciated.

If it were me I would take your father's advice on this one over some message board.

I would move up the appointment with your therapist first and discuss with a pro.

I went in somewhat voluntarily the first time. But I went in talking to a therapist who was consulting the doctor. They are both still on my team. It might not be a bad idea.

Things may be different in England in how people tend to handle these types of situations.

Good luck. You sound like you have a good understanding of what's going on to me.

PS I'm medicated but I know once on these meds its extremely hard to get off them. The body and mind both work differently. Do some research on dopamine if you are comfortable with that. Thats the neurotransmitter that is effectively managed in cases of psychosis. There is a lot of interesting research on the subject. Might help you calm some.

Trust your team but call for help if you think you need it. Support lines should be available I assume over there.

Things are different here in the USA though I'm sure.

[Crescent Moon]

Originally Posted by WaifLikeLilly

Thank you all very much! I have decided to go to my GP first thing on Monday. And I think I will ask for medication... I am slightly nervous, because I have never had medication before, and my dad has been telling me really bad things about medication. (But he has never actually been on them.) Thanks again for your opinions, it's very much appreciated.

Just know that it can take time for meds to start working, and sometimes you have to try more than one med to find the right one.

[WaifLikeLilly]

Originally Posted by lawrenman

If it were me I would take your father's advice on this one over some message board.

I would move up the appointment with your therapist first and discuss with a pro.

I went in somewhat voluntarily the first time. But I went in talking to a therapist who was consulting the doctor. They are both still on my team. It might not be a bad idea.

Things may be different in England in how people tend to handle these types of situations.

Good luck. You sound like you have a good understanding of what's going on to me.

PS I'm medicated but I know once on these meds its extremely hard to get off them. The body and mind both work differently. Do some research on dopamine if you are comfortable with that. Thats the neurotransmitter that is effectively managed in cases of psychosis. There is a lot of interesting research on the subject. Might help you calm some.

Trust your team but call for help if you think you need it. Support lines should be available I assume over there.

Things are different here in the USA though I'm sure.

Sadly I am unable to move up the appointment. I have an important exam at the end of this week, and this is why I am so anxious to improve, as I get very little sleep due to the psychosis. Thank you for your opinion.

[lawrenman]

Well as I'm writing eating my leftover pizza, jobless, while my wife is away, and its too stormy to mow my stupid lawn.

Sometimes life has to wait.

Like my last time I stayed at the psych ward..."work work work, everything is about work"-as they tied me down to the bed to get an injection of haldol I presume.

That was a mini-vacation from work to me.

Have you tried any relaxation techniques yet? Do you find the studying to be somewhat burdensome?

When I had my first true manic episode, I hadn't slept for a week or so...the psychosis became unbearable. I just wanted a simple tranquilizer and I wanted it only once. I was trying to tear up the lunchroom and was becoming quite bitter at the psych ward. I started feeling pretty decent after the shot. But the psychatrist was hyped on caffeine and simply told me if I didn't take my medicine he'd take me to court and have me locked up in a state run facility. I was pretty fidgety after that and didn't want to be there anymore. Seriously it was a scary place to go to. Sometimes stress can cause psychosis to develop via mania. The meds are giving me a headache as I write this. Just FYI. Taxing the brain is not cool on psych meds.

Maybe some stories will help you feel better about your illness? I know you aren't alone that is for sure.

[ofthevalley]

Hope things went well with your GP

[WaifLikeLilly]

Originally Posted by ofthevalley

Hope things went well with your GP

Thanks! I actually left crying... He told me that he thought it was just stress, and honestly it kinda felt like he didn't believe me.(He didn't really let me finish before he told me what he thought) He gave me anxiety tablets though, so at least that's something. I'll just have to see if they help.

[WaifLikeLilly]

Originally Posted by lawrenman

Well as I'm writing eating my leftover pizza, jobless, while my wife is away, and its too stormy to mow my stupid lawn.

Sometimes life has to wait.

Like my last time I stayed at the psych ward..."work work work, everything is about work"-as they tied me down to the bed to get an injection of haldol I presume.

That was a mini-vacation from work to me.

Have you tried any relaxation techniques yet? Do you find the studying to be somewhat burdensome?

When I had my first true manic episode, I hadn't slept for a week or so...the psychosis became unbearable. I just wanted a simple tranquilizer and I wanted it only once. I was trying to tear up the lunchroom and was becoming quite bitter at the psych ward. I started feeling pretty decent after the shot. But the psychatrist was hyped on caffeine and simply told me if I didn't take my medicine he'd take me to court and have me locked up in a state run facility. I was pretty fidgety after that and didn't want to be there anymore. Seriously it was a scary place to go to. Sometimes stress can cause psychosis to develop via mania. The meds are giving me a headache as I write this. Just FYI. Taxing the brain is not cool on psych meds.

Maybe some stories will help you feel better about your illness? I know you aren't alone that is for sure.

I think I will look at some relaxation techniques, as the doctor hasn't really helped like I thought he would. Thank you

[lawrenman]

Originally Posted by WaifLikeLilly

I think I will look at some relaxation techniques, as the doctor hasn't really helped like I thought he would. Thank you

Well I hope the best for you. Try to get some rest and not be to concerned with the results of your exam (or making sure you are prepared). Sometimes at least with me if I worried less about the result of something forthcoming I did better on it.

Sending out my best prayers and well wishes to you. Life is a challenge especially when any decision is a tough one.

The journey is always better than the result that's what is important. Relaxation is very important sometimes.