[convalescence]

Has anything strange happened to you before where it made you wonder "Am I about to have a psychotic episode?"

I just walked outside of my room. Everybody is sound asleep and before I went to my room everything was turned off. I leave my room and see the TV is turned on. THERE MUST BE SOMEBODY IN MY HOUSE TRYING TO KILL ME. No, maybe not. Maybe somebody accidentally left it on? Whatever it is... it's freaking me out. I don't feel alone. I feel as if somebody is watching me. I need that knife to protect myself. This should be a normal thing to happen though, right? Hmm...

[12AM]

I believe those strange things that happen are not the triggering factors for a psychotic episode. It is the psychotic episodes that caused the strange things happen. As for me, I started losing control of my own body. For example, I would like to smile but I couldn’t, hence the catatonia for a while. I cannot relate with hearing voices suddenly because I’ve been hearing voices since I was a kid. Back then I thought everyone is hearing voices in their head. But I can relate with that feeling of insecurity, I used to think that one day a group of people will kidnap me. Therefore back then I carried knife everywhere to protect myself. Now that I am better and have more understanding towards my illness, I carry my spirit everywhere instead

usually for me when those things happen it's less of an "oh no is it about to start" and more of an "oh no it's already happening" feeling. no time to even scramble to grab a branch before the sinkhole hits. it's already happening, but every strange thing that happens feeds it, and there's no cap where things stop getting any weirder and scarier. was that red light reflecting off my plugs the tail light of a car? no, it was definitely a sniper scope and the predator's coming to kill you. say goodbye to your six xenomorph sons only you can see. surprise, he's gonna kill them too.

[convalescence]

12PM, I'm so sorry to hear that. I don't always have psychotic episodes, but they're intense when they come on. Delusions are my main complaint rather than hallucinations.

psycho mantis, I feel a mixture of both, lol. I know how that feels, too. Also, when you're in that state EVERYTHING that happens feels either profound, weird, or both. Lol. At least that's the case for me.

[12AM]

It's okay Convalescence, I am get used to it already. Sometimes I wonder what this world would be without hearing and seeing hallucinations. I will do anything to live in a silence even for a minute. But that's not the life for me, and it's okay with that. Schizophrenia can take everything away from me, but not my happiness. Hope you doing well Convalescence

[joacobanfield]

I have this also, everytime I get home I check if there is someone and I assume "battle position" upon opening the door, even if it is to someone I know.
I wouldnt give this up for anything tough. The voices are calm, helpful (Test answers!) and supportive (and quite fun)
My experiences with hallucinations vary from total nightmares to "LETS DO THAT AGAIN!"but they are rare in my case.
How do normal people live??
Regarding strange experiences, I get a "difference" attack every so often, makes me feel so different.
Oh, and I confused s hallucination with reality for YEARS