[woolyg]

Several year ago I was pretty much forced into under going a Angiogram, this procedure was an ordeal, to say the least my cardiologist commented that he has been seen anyone so distressed during the procedure in his career.
Over the years I have developed serious issues with trust and cant trust anyone, family friends drs anyone.
During my teenage years I was badly abused.
My pdoc which I have been seeing for several years now has diagnosed my with severe anxiety, paranoia and complex trauma. I have been prescribe quetiapine ,Sertraline and valium for my ptsd mental issues
I have auditory and visual hillusinations but no flash backs to the abuse. My pdoc says I do not have any psychiatric issues, I dont feel like I do either.

The problem I have is that I dont trust my pdoc enough to open up enough to talk about other day to day issues which are having a profound effect on my day to day life,
everytime I try and open up to my pdoc the words will just not come out of my mouth.

I have tried tell my psychologist what is happeneing but everytime I try and tell her the words will just not come out of my mouth, there is no way I can even hint to my pdoc what is going on.

During my angiogram procedure I started hearing a fax sounding noise in my head and I began communicating with a satellite, I was able to hack into the UK government computer and I came across some
highly damaging documents, I stored the contents of the documents on the chip but now the authorities know the documents have have accessed and are try to track me down. My cardiologist and pdoc are colluding together I want to know what information I have stored on
the chip and want to remove it and blackmail me with the information so I will agree to a more high powered chip.

Several months ago, my family took me for a second opinion at a private pdoc who diagnosed me with paranoid schizophrenia, when I told my pdoc of this she dismissed it out of hand and said this was definitely not the case.

It has taken me days to build up courage to just write on this forum, I am so scared.

[Sometimes psychotic]

Hi and welcome----what you describe happening during your angiogram sounds a lot like some sort of psychosis which can be a component of schizophrenia but doesn't necessarily indicate it. I'm surprised you got two such different opinions from your pdocs....

[woolyg]

HI thanks for your reply, I never wanted the second opinion I got pushed into by my family.
The reason for the wildly different diagnosis is because I don't trust my main NHS pdoc and can't talk to her. She recommended changing pdoc but there is no point as it will be no different with somebody else. The whole miss has just made me more confused, as there doesn't feel as though there is anything mentally wrong with me.

[EllieGreene]

It sure does sound like psychosis because you said you do have hallucinations and one of your meds is an antipsychotic. Your experience with the angiogram was very stressful. I have read that stress can bring on a psychotic episode and your thoughts about the chip and the government and feeling paranoid about your cardiologist and pdoc seems psychotic. Another antipsychotic med or increased dose of the one your on might calm you down and help with hallucinations. This must be so scary for you.

I'm sorry your family pushed you into another evaluation but they probably did it out of love for you. Your family loves you and wants you to get good treatment!

I hope you're feeling better soon!

[woolyg]

Thanks for your very kind words, I have never been so stressed in all my life during that angiogram, although that said I dont really show my emotions at all, I do get highly stressed over the slightest thing though.
I dont trust my family it is though they are trying to make me believe I have a problem, where as I know I dont, they are always spying on me, I have had to move out the house and live on my own in my caravan stored at the back of the house, I need to be on my own.
My psychologist I trying to get me to open up, put I fear anything I say to her will get back to my pdoc.