[TheGoatKing333]

I was diagnosed with depression and psychotic symptoms. I'm not depressed anymore. I get paranoid once a week. It's really stressful and scary. They're paranoid delusions. I used to get these feelings that people were going to attack me, hurt me, and following me. The episodes last for around an hour or shorter. It fluctuates. I don't know when they will happen. I went 8 days without getting paranoid and it wasn't that bad. Last Sunday I got paranoid and I got really scared. After I get paranoid it throws me off a lot and I get really sad the next day. I hate my paranoia. I wish I didn't have it. I worried about it so much for the last couple days. I've been worrying that I'll get paranoid during the Star Wars premiere on Friday. I had tickets for Sunday and I usually get paranoid on Sunday so I switched my tickets to Friday because I rarely get paranoid on Fridays. It usually happens on Sundays. I'm now worrying about getting paranoid today because it hasn't happened this week yet. This outpatient program that I went to taught me reality testing. I tell myself that I'm safe and that no one is going to hurt me. I just need more ways to cope with this. I worry way too much.

[Skeezyks]

Thanks for sharing your concern, TheGoatKing333. Up until just a few years ago, I had fairly regular bouts of low back strain that would be so painful I could barely get out of bed to go to the bathroom. During these time periods I would become paranoid. I would start thinking about the possibility that someone might break into the house, or the house might catch on fire. And I would be so restricted that I could not do anything to save myself. Even now, sometimes late at night, I'll feel tinges of paranoia. Like you, I tell myself I'm safe, plus I hold that feeling of paranoia in my mind & breathe into it.