Roll Call 69

Sucky xmas , lost someone close to our family , as a result had to listen to people talk alot of sh@t. Anyways thats life I guess..

I did, yesterday! I left twinkling lights around my living room to keep it festive.
I got my small space back!

i already told my mom i wasnt going. she canceled the plane ticket.

i know im in a bad place right now. very bad.
...and i dont jump to travel
especially when im not feeling like im in a good place.
but i just couldnt do it...

school will still be in session.
ive got a couple of other things going on.
even though i know ill be lonely and bored...i couldnt do it.

i asked everyone around me if i should go.
its like i dont have a mind of my own...

What's everyone up to today?

I have been shopping....my boyfriend wants me to dress a little nicer and I agree and he also wants me to interact with more people irl in this case the sales staff are easy to talk to....win win, I normally order everything online. Anyway I got a new cute coat and a pair of boots, all in grey.

Driving around. My dad had his phone stolen so off to the bank and stuff to change the account passwords and stuff..

So sorry that really bites! Big hug!

im just on my phone.

i plan to not eat after 8pm and stop drinking the wine samplers since they arent helping anyway anymore and probably make my tolerance for benzos higher.

i didnt go anywhere today. been in bed all day. because i hurt my neck badly sleeping wrong.

I have been cleaning for the last four hours....I must have thrown away twenty bags of old stuff.....it barely looks any better.....but it needed to be done...I am exhausted and still shredding old documents. My boyfriend suggested this as a worthwhile task to improve myself for the new year but I have to admit I sort of resent it a little....I mean I know I must be a little depressed to live without really cleaning for so long but at the same time it's not that bad, just a little cluttered....he also offered to help so it's not like he's pushing me to do everything on my own but I'm kind of embarrased for him to help me.....

So it's official,
My friend officially told me that she no lingers wants to be my friend.
I know it's because of the schizophrenia and not because she actually thinks I was ignoring her.

She tried to make herself seem like less of an ***, but she still seems like an asshole to me

Everyone has given up on me
I won't ever get better

I lost my former lifelong friends also as an indirect result of my psychosis but I actually started losing them long before for other reasons. But if know how much it can hurt. You'll make new friends and hopefully you'll have a lot more fun with them.

Paid off the money I owed on my student account, now I can see about registering for Spring classes

I keep waking up every couple of hours and cleaning....I think it's making me manic.

Good morning all.

Have a happy New Year's Eve!

I'm registered for classes! Now to just wait for my financial aid to be posted so I can complete financial check in then I'm all set!

Both my cats are bums, they've been laying in my bed all night and one is snoring lol

Hello everyone. Happy new year. xx

Good morning! We are keeping today's celebrations low key. Playing games and watching The Martian. Grandma will hangout with us. My husband is cooking a special steak dinner. I bought hats to wear and poppers for midnight. I'm excited! Last year I fell asleep before new year and hope I can last this year. 2016 has to be better than 2015. Things have to improve, I have to keep telling myself that when you're down there's only one way to go.

Happy New Years to all of you!

Morning all!

Not many hours left until 2016 now! We are going over to my sisters to see in the New Year... nothing fancy. Will be making sure I have my iPhone charged up so I can play games on it, otherwise I'll probably get bored waiting for midnight...

Only downside is, I can't do my usual trick of going to bed at 00:01... I reckon we'll be getting back about 1am or something. Dare say I'll survive...

Good morning ^^

Where does everyone get their news from? I downloaded a bunch of news apps.

I really hope not

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Good morning! I hope everyone enjoys their New Year's Eve. I have nothing exciting planned. Getting some pizza for dinner and hanging out to see the ball drop.

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Where did weeping willow take off to? I miss her.

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Got financial check in done, I already have most of the books I need from the semester I couldn't finish so I only need to order one more then I'm ready to start classes! Sorry I keep updating about this, I'm just really excited

That's awesome bluebird!