Roll Call 69

Do you remember when you ran from the voice before? This could be a similar situation. How are your meds if I remember correctly they wanted to increase them. Now before you get mad at me for not believing you at face value I'm going to flip it on you....I'll be the third to say this and you aren't believing us.....we are trying to help you

sorry to hear angelique. what are you planning to do?

what if shes in a real situation though?

i lived in an apartment a few years ago and had the almost exact same thing happen. there were people throwing a basketball at my door and looking through my window saying "we see you. we are gonna get you". (they were athletes at the college). i called the police and they didnt see anyone. i asked them to escort me to my car and i saw the men who were harrassing me look out their window. it wasnt a hallucination or delusion. it was real and this kind of thing happens in apartments/townhomes/some houses.

I know. But this is objectively happening. And it's like being gaslighted. Would you rather I believed you and ended up dead, or would you rather I ran away and stayed alive and relatively unharmed?

To be honest I'm almost ready to just stay here and try to fight. If the police did catch them it might solve the problem. But I know how scared I was this past week and I don't think I can go another night of it here, especially if they do start breaking in.

The pdoc didn't say anything about a med change when I went last month. I've been stable on my meds and dosage for over a year.

This is really happening. It's my misfortune that I thought I was being stalked for 7 years before this.

I'm glad you weren't hurt! Yes, this is a real thing. And I don't know what I should do. If I go to the airport I will lose everything I have. I have tons of stuff here that I need for daily life. I'd have to leave it all behind. In the bags I'm just packing as much as I can but I won't be able to carry them.

I've lived in apartments for 20+ years and while I've never had anyone mess with me I do believe it can happen....I'm not dismissing it entirely it just seems unlikely that the neighbors are out for more than just messing with you. If people want to hurt you they usually just do it, why warn someone?

I don't know, it's been a terrifying week. I'd imagine they could build up more people to break in on the weekend. If they do it, the landlord will know it. If they have friends do it, they can be silent and say they know nothing.

Im not entirely sure what to think as i dont know the whole story but i wouldnt fly off to somewhere else/goto the airport. I wouldnt take that drastic of a measure.

I think you just need a temporary place to stay thats far from them.

When it happened to me I got up and left and went to stay at my dads 30 minutes away. I didnf even take my stuff with me except for my valuables. I called the police (it was midnight) and had them escort me to my car.

Im not sure what youre capable of doing. But i would call the police if you have to and say theres some people harrassing you. I would leave to a temporary place but i would NOT take off to the airport and fly somewhere.

And that's what is scaring me even more, the thought of strangers breaking in who won't have any guilt about knowing me.

ETA I only have about 2 hours until it's dark. They probably won't act until tonight though. They'll do the quiet pounding on the walls to start building the terror.

I'm not sure why you've decided that your neighbors making noise means they want to do you harm.....I believe they are noisy but I don't think they actually would harm you....of course your living situation might be different so I can't rule it out completely it just seems highly unlikely.

Ok sorry about the med part it must have been someone else.

All I'm asking is that you consider the possibility it could be a delusion....you would be giving up a lot if that's the case....

I'm going to pretty much reiterate what my T said to me the other day. All of these probabilities you're describing are hypothetical, an unknown. You don't know what's going to happen, they're just ideas you've created. We can't live in anything else but the present.

All you know as fact is that your neighbours are rowdy and loud. Everything else is hypothetical.

The only temporary places are a motel and the hospital. Both of those, what happens after I have to come back? They will pick up right where they left off. That's why I'm thinking airport. I am terrified. I don't have a car. I have to call a taxi and that will cost astronomical.

If you told the people at the hospital what was going on they might be able to help you if it happened to be a symptom. Why not rule that out before moving across the country? If it's not a symptom you'll at least have more time to plan....

Well, of course everyonr here thinks its a
Delusion. This is pc. But I'm here in my real life with this happening. You weren't here when they pounded on the walls and my ceiling for 45 minutes. You weren't here this past week when Wednesday night they picked up the pounding again only quiet and quick so I couldn't record it. I know what they're doing. They're trying to drive me out.



When someone pounds on your apartment at 1:40 AM it becomes less hypothetical.

Have other neighbors complained about the noise?

Can you be Inpatient maybe? (I believe this is the correct word but I don’t know how it works in your place). I am not saying that you are delusional but I am not saying that you are not delusional as well. There are two possibilities and becoming Inpatient maybe the right solution for both cases. If you are not delusional then at least you can stay out of the house for the weekend. And if you are delusional then hospital will make you feel better before you come back home.. Just my opinion tho.

Just ordered a ps3 , 10 years after it released. Should be here next week , super excited. Got so man bits and bobs arriving , totally psyched.

I don't know.

Why couldn't you record it? Android/Windows/Apple phones come with a voice recorder that will last as long as you have storage space on your phone. Were there spaces of up to an hour between banging?

I think it sounds like they are trying to terrorize you by being loud and obnoxious but I wouldn't go so far sad to think they are trying to hurt you. You've called the police before so they would be stupid to try to break in and try to harm you. Maybe a hotel for the night would be a good idea. At least you would get some sleep and be able to deal with this with a clear head. I'm thinking of you.

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I was too stunned and frozen. It never occurred to me. It was too strange. They pounded for about 45 minutes. If only I had thought of it I would have gotten a recording.

I start my college classes next week!

Thank you. I don't think they'll stop though if I come back. They are happy, believe me, with what they're doing. I don't think they'll stop.

Exciting! What are you taking?

I've thought about the hospital. But I can only be admitted if I say I'm suicidal or homicidal. Plus, if I do that, it's only for a few days. I'd still have to be discharged and come back here.