Roll Call 69

Those look good on you!

I'd just like to make one observation though, as far as I am concerned...

These are overalls:



What you have are... dungarees!

I believe we call those coveralls in this country----as far as dungarees that's a new one to me

I seriously think that you should seek some help

Loial are you still med free? How long has it been now?

Talking about overalls, I think emma watson nailed them perfectly, but she would look good in anything anyways..

aah ill be seeing my t tomorrow but theres not much else i can do until then. i just gotta stop being a baby

she could wear a garbage bag and make it work tbh

I am glad you will be seeing your T tomorrow, being a baby is okay sometimes (reassuring her self )

it is for other people!!!!!!! but not me because im Special™™™™™™™™™™™™™™™™

i wish i was that skinny. i cuffed up my overall leg part and it just looks silly. unlike emma watson.

Hahahaha sure you are special

Newtus, I wish I had her body too. But I think your overall looks good on you, I might looking for something similar next time I go shopping.

Btw, I am sleep typing ugh, 3 am here, meds kicked already but I want to sleep later zz

sometimes i wish i wasnt even a girl but a boy. so i could be taller and skinny.

So my boss never got back to me so I wasted an entire day waiting on her. I have an interview tomorrow so maybe I can dump the job. Fingers crossed.

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Made an eye doctor appointment so I can get some new glasses

Seems like an odd statement to me...

Comes across as you want to be a boy because they have those characteristics. Sure, men tend to be slightly taller than females on average but we do come in all shapes & sizes too!

I think you should try to place more emphasis on being happy how you are. In the grand scheme of things you are certainly a very normal size, so I think it's more about how you perceive yourself than other people. I know your Mum doesn't help things but try not to let that influence your view of yourself.

Yes I am still med free...

Not had any real changes since things settled down a month or so after stopping the medication. Voices are still around but I find it very easy to get distracted from them now. If I'm busy doing stuff I might only hear them a few minutes at a time two or three times a day.

Or, equally... I might hear them for half an hour if I am not up to much.

I kind of think they are trying to get their "fair share" now, making up for the comparative quiet of the last couple of weeks. Been quite incessant at times this evening. Thankfully it still doesn't bother me much hearing them, just become a part of life.

I was thinking earlier... it's been like a year and a half now since my psychosis came back. If my previous episode was anything to go by, it cleared up after about 2 years. Makes me hopeful that perhaps I'll get back to normality fully this year but guess we'll just have to wait and see. There is no timetable to these things.

Princess buttercup no less , shall I tell you what im going to say next?

hey guys. saw T this morning and it went really well. we talked some about former T trauma and i didnt freak out !!! he noted that years ago i would have ended up suicidal, dissociative, stop taking meds, etc but today i was able to cope and get back to my normal day afterwards. progress!!!! he told me some more about trauma processing techniques we can use. i actually told him a little bit about the other couples my T took me to to watch them have with me. which is the most shameful part about the whole thing TBH.

after that i got my work schedule and found out i can go to game night on thurs

then i came home and my roommate and me went to a GIANT goodwill. we got a lamp for the living room, pillows for the couch, and string lights for the screen porch!!! she is outside right now spray painting a metal bench she got from some where. we also ate japanese food.

so it was a fun day. i am getting along well with my roomie so far and i am glad. and its super cool to have someone here so i am not alone all the time. ive noticed the voices less and less, i havent heard them in a while.

today was a rly good day and i am just happy.

As you wish..

yea thats true. i just want boyish characteristics like small hips and i hate my chest (if you know what i mean). i guess i just dont want to be a normal size. i want to be thinner. but hopefully this yoga class i plan to take will help me start on the road to exercising. as i never follow through with it on my own. like in my own home.

You're going to do great!

Yes , as you wish😇

thank you!!!

rAmen, sister! I too have gained weight. I went from a 32 waist to a 38 waist. I work out and... my arms show it. But so do my stretch marks from gaining it so fast.

Funny story. This big overweight guy, with a good sense of humor, was chuckling with my other co worker (friend) I noticed. I had my ear buds in though so I couldn't hear a dam thing. I knew they were laughing about me so I looked at them and made this sound that a car does, rrrrruuuuuuuuuUUUUUUUMMMMMMM! They looked at each other and looked their eyes were so big. and they tried to hide laughing their butts out. Turns out, the overweight one, Dave, said, "Hey, fat boy, want a poptart" And I guess this 20 or something kid who was really over weight, looked like it was a question directed at him, and he turned so read... That's when I went RRRRUUUUMMMMMM!

Next day, he wore a Planet Fitness shirt.

Poor kid. Look, I'm 33 and I love making fun of myself and can handle being made fun of, this kid wasn't ready for us. lol