Roll Call 75

I ordered a DBT skills workbook. I heard DBT can be helpful for anyone not just those with BPD. I figure it may help me manage my moods and how I react to other people around me.

Probably going to stay up tonight. Have to get up early tomorrow and it's already kinda late.

My brother is coming over on Sunday with his girlfriend and I get to meet my niece for the first time. She's almost a year old. She's so cute , she looks just like him. Looking forward to that

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I'm watching Caesar 911. I hate Caesar Milan but it's the only thing on.

Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety

im not tired after sleeping all evening

"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

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i wanna get off my meds

"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

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I think about that too. Especially when I'm feeling good. But part of me knows I feel good because of the meds. I hate being so dependent on them just to function. Right now I'm not feeling great so I have no desire to stop them. I'm going to ask my pnp if I'll ever be able to get off of them. There are just so many pills .

Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety

i texted my T that im scared of group and i dont wanna go. he texted back 'me either'. lol...thanks T..helpful

i got home at 11 30 and my roommate is not here. she usually is. i am concerned bc i texted her asking where she is and if shes ok and no response. this kind of stuff sends me into tailspins about people being dead. what should i do????

plz forgive me for not being here to make the new roll call. im sorry i caused panic...

i am worried about my roommate hopefully shes just at someones house or something. she is ALWAYS here when i get off at night and its just very unlike her to be out this late. plus she didnt respond to my text

Maybe she's just off having a good time. I know I don't always hear my phone. Try not to worry.

Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety

she just texted me.... thanks... i am so nuts

Your not nuts. You're just worried about your friend.

Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety

I can imagine what it is. Probably how to spot how the physical signs of stress and psychosis , actively cause mental disturbances..this is how I started to get better, to be honest..

Good morning. Finishing my English. I'm not sleeping I don't like sleep but quasi-psychosis tamed idek injection

WW3 so basically I think we should colonize Antarctica

And eat penguins

i had more nightmares last night. i tossed and turned. i took more ambien because i couldnt sleep with melatonin.

i was punching the air in my sleep. i had a nightmare that i was beating up my bullies and i bit and hit them in the face. i was sent to an alternative school where they drugged me full of meds.

this is actually getting worse because im punching in my sleep.

i just want all of this to go away. i feel like im headed for state hospital.

"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

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Good morning all.

I hope everyone has a good day.

OK thanks, do you still use somatic therapy to get well? Glad it worked for you!

My research indicates that somatic therapy is helpful for people who have suffered a trauma.

Thank you for researching it. I didn't know that and don't consider myself traumatized. I was going to ask my t about it but sounds like its not for me. I have a lot of physiological reactions to stress but sometimes I seem calm but my body is stressing out or vice versa. I tried deep breathing, mindfulness and now CBT. Hoping something works.

Oops, started my day without saying Good Morning!
Hope everyone has a great day!

First of all I'd like to apologise for my absense on the forum. Life got over the top of me and I needed to get off the computer.

Today I feel numb. I don't feel like I can smile today. Usually when I feel like this I make a blanket fort and sit in it. But I cannot be bothered doing that today. Something new has been going on. I keep seeing a black cat in the house even though I don't own a cat. I swear it's as real as the nose on my face. I'm afraid to tell my brother about the cat because I want to keep it. I've given it a name and everything. It's called Ace because he reminds me of the ace of spades. I say he's a he but I don't actually know his gender. I never get close enough to touch him because he hisses at me when I get near him.

Another reason I won't tell my brother about him is because last time I told my brother about something he threatened to call my mental health team. He used them against me and it's not fair. I'm being bullied by my brother. If I get angry, we have a shouting match and I end up locking myself in the bathroom. So I've sorta learned to keep my mouth shut and not mention a word to my brother. keeping my big mouth shut is the only way for me to live in harmony with my brother.