[rainbow in the dark]

they say I'm not. My old therapist had me sign papers that I'm schizophrenic, schizotypal with social anxiety. The next therapist I had said I'm not schizophrenic but have schizotypal and anxiety. I also was a heavy drinker and tried AA. Now I don't drink, nor attend AA. I remember a guy in there saying he wasn't schizophrenic, he was an alcoholic. So if I go to AA and say I'm an alcoholic and surrender to God, and be a bozo on the bus, fall in line and am powerless...people will leave me alone?

What I am trying to figure out is my paranoia is there because people are trying to hurt me and make me sick but nobody believes the stuff I say is happening. I don't have proof but I can tell when it is happening. Maybe I got the wrong guy mad at me and he has connections through money, fbi, nsa, secret societies, I'm sorry I'm schizotypal and whatever I did to make people want to ruin my life. I really don't get it...I'm a nice guy who has never hurt anyone, yet it seems so many want to harass me. Anyways, didn't mean to ramble, guess I just have to accept life as it comes. I read some articles on the Transhuman Agenda and if all this stuff like gang stalking goes on...I mean if all the crap I read is really going on I don't care about "fitting In" this society. I will try to do things that make me happy and enjoy my days and if I die, it will be OK. And if any of you people who are after me are reading this...tell whoever is mad at me, I'm sorry for whatever I did to make you so mad.

I would appreciate any comments about whether this sounds delusional or if you think it is possible.

Thanks

[insilence]

ive been through the stalking, voices, more torturous stuff they can do. i found a low dose of meds along with blocking materials over high gauss areas on walls, lotions, waxes, and divining rods helped me figure out whats real. dont fear them, block them.

[Angelique67]

It's been happening to me since at least March. I know who the ringleader is, but the police are never around when weird crap is happening, and I'm the one with the crazy label, so no one believes me about it.

The only thing I can do is hope that it won't be an issue wherever I end up (planning to move soon). I hope it stops happening to you too. Oh, and I'm 100% med compliant and see my pdoc like every two weeks. Although meds help, the best thing I can do is to stop paying attention to whatever is happening, because meds only help so much.

[ofthevalley]

Originally Posted by rainbow in the dark

they say I'm not. My old therapist had me sign papers that I'm schizophrenic, schizotypal with social anxiety. The next therapist I had said I'm not schizophrenic but have schizotypal and anxiety. I also was a heavy drinker and tried AA. Now I don't drink, nor attend AA. I remember a guy in there saying he wasn't schizophrenic, he was an alcoholic. So if I go to AA and say I'm an alcoholic and surrender to God, and be a bozo on the bus, fall in line and am powerless...people will leave me alone?


What I am trying to figure out is my paranoia is there because people are trying to hurt me and make me sick but nobody believes the stuff I say is happening. I don't have proof but I can tell when it is happening. Maybe I got the wrong guy mad at me and he has connections through money, fbi, nsa, secret societies, I'm sorry I'm schizotypal and whatever I did to make people want to ruin my life. I really don't get it...I'm a nice guy who has never hurt anyone, yet it seems so many want to harass me. Anyways, didn't mean to ramble, guess I just have to accept life as it comes. I read some articles on the Transhuman Agenda and if all this stuff like gang stalking goes on...I mean if all the crap I read is really going on I don't care about "fitting In" this society. I will try to do things that make me happy and enjoy my days and if I die, it will be OK. And if any of you people who are after me are reading this...tell whoever is mad at me, I'm sorry for whatever I did to make you so mad.


I would appreciate any comments about whether this sounds delusional or if you think it is possible.


Thanks

Have you seen a psychiatrist ? To my knowledge a therapist can't diagnose you.
I think anything is possible. We live in a crazy world.

[rainbow in the dark]

Originally Posted by ofthevalley

Have you seen a psychiatrist ? To my knowledge a therapist can't diagnose you.
I think anything is possible. We live in a crazy world.

Yeah I see a psychiatrist every three months and I was seeing a therapist once a week for a few years, but I stopped because she thought I was stable. She takes notes and discusses my case with the doc and she said she thinks I'm not schizophrenic and I talked to the doc about it and he agreed, but he didn't remove it from my chart. I think I'm schizotypal, bipolar with anxiety. Anyways, thank you 3 for replying, and I agree, the world is crazy...like Lord of the Rings or something.

Does anyone ever feel like when they go somewhere, it is a setup? I walk into a store and notice what is happening, then if I see someone staring at me or saying things that seem meant for me to here...I automatically go in to analyzing mode and usually abort. My uncle said they are coincidences. Well if I am a bit paranoid, coincidences seem like set ups and I leave the scene.

[sduck]

This is sorta my experience. Many people I actually know don't believe it, including doctors. I don't even take meds at all anymore, they don't seem to be making any sort of difference in my "behavior" and I'm having these other crazy symptoms that no one seems to understand or have an answer for.