[Robyn51]

Georgina is a (-@£! Seriously won't leave me alone and I'm on edge of turning into her again. I've let her ruin my life over and over. Plus she gives me terrible nightmares that make me not want to talk to anyone or trust them or myself ever again

This is never going to go away

Possible trigger:

I hate this. I feel like giving up. I can't tell my partner because it will hurt her. But I want to get rid of Georgina and myself once and for all. But that is selfish. So I'm trapped with this horrible feeling, like poison running through my veins with no safe way to get it out

When does this ever end?

[Loial]

I'm sorry you are feeling like this...

Is this "Georgina" another part of you?

I see on your profile you have lots of mental health issues, but this makes me this of DID. (Dissociative Identity Disorder) Are you diagnosed with that?

I have no experience of that but there is a sub-forum for DID that might help you dealing with conflicting parts of yourself.

There will be a way to manage all this pain. I know sometimes things can seem bleak & there is no way out but maybe some therapy would be able to help you?

[Robyn51]

I suffer dissociation but at the moment I'm suffering psychotic depression and was told Georgina is part of the psychosis. Antisoychotics aren't working :-(

[Loial]

How many APs have you tried?

Unfortunately it can be rather hit or miss with them...

For me they don't affect my voices that much, but remove all my paranoia/delusions. It's different for everyone.

[Robyn51]

I was on risperidone for about 8 months, been on quetiapine for a few years and tbh it's only pulled me down depression wise by making me sleepy and unmotivated, I've just stopped them to go onto aripriprazole. The aripriprazole will be increased Friday. I feel like it's lifted me, but done nothing for my paranoia, I'm having thoughts in my head that aren't mine and questioning everything. I don't feel like my mind belongs to em anymore. My brain is in the wrong body.
I'm guessing I need to give it all time to work, but I'm feeling like I will never be better and I'm a waste of a life :-/

[Robyn51]

Georgina is telling me things I don't want to hear and trying to steal my relationship from me

[cincidak]

Originally Posted by Robyn51

I was on risperidone for about 8 months, been on quetiapine for a few years and tbh it's only pulled me down depression wise by making me sleepy and unmotivated, I've just stopped them to go onto aripriprazole. The aripriprazole will be increased Friday. I feel like it's lifted me, but done nothing for my paranoia, I'm having thoughts in my head that aren't mine and questioning everything. I don't feel like my mind belongs to em anymore. My brain is in the wrong body.
I'm guessing I need to give it all time to work, but I'm feeling like I will never be better and I'm a waste of a life :-/

Please give the medications time Robyn. I tried six antipsychotics to find the right fit for me. I now take Saphris, and Geodon. I'm calm , peaceful, and happy
You have to find what works for you.I know hard it can be, trust me. Some medications can take up to six weeks to have full effect. There are quite a few antipsychotics you can try if this latest one doesn't work out. My prayers are with you

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[Robyn51]

Thank you to you all lovelies. I drew Georgina a picture basically telling her to F off and I've spent the day fixated on my beadwork. Not sure I'm going to sleep again though. So guess I will be doing more bead work lol xxxx

[Fuzzybear]

[Atypical_Disaster]

I'm sorry you're struggling. I can relate to this kind of thing quite a lot. I know it's horrible.

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