[defyinggravity65]

I have an obsessive worry about having psychosis or schizophrenia. These are the things that make me believe I might have it:
1. I once had a "dream" that I woke up one morning and thought was real. This happened over a year ago, and to be honest I'm still not sure if it actually happened or not. It wasn't about anything bizarre, but it was either a dream or a memory of something that happened to me 5+ years ago. It bothers me, because I feel like I should know FOR SURE if it happened or not, and I don't.
2. I have severe anxiety, and worried about the event in #1 for a long time. Due to my OCD, I developed a fear of having false memories and remembering things that aren't true. Consequently, there have been about 5-10 other times in the past 2 years where I've thought I remembered things that didn't happen. Again, nothing bizarre, but the most extreme one happened the day after I cancelled a therapy session and I had a sudden "memory" of receiving a letter from my therapy session asking why I cancelled therapy. As soon as I "remembered" this, I knew it hadn't happened but it still feel like a memory. Another couple of my memories I wasn't so sure on.
3. I rehearse and repeat conversations to myself a lot when I'm alone. I don't hear voices, but I'll do it out loud.
4. I have no friends, but I am close with my boyfriend and family. I don't really have a desire to have friends and find it hard to motivate myself to put effort forth to form friendships.

Do you think I am on the verge of becoming psychotic or is this just bad OCD?

[ickydog2006]

Honestly, it sounds a lot more like ocd to me. There are quite a few criteria that have to be met for it to be schizophrenia.

Originally Posted by defyinggravity65

I have an obsessive worry about having psychosis or schizophrenia. These are the things that make me believe I might have it:
1. I once had a "dream" that I woke up one morning and thought was real. This happened over a year ago, and to be honest I'm still not sure if it actually happened or not. It wasn't about anything bizarre, but it was either a dream or a memory of something that happened to me 5+ years ago. It bothers me, because I feel like I should know FOR SURE if it happened or not, and I don't.
2. I have severe anxiety, and worried about the event in #1 for a long time. Due to my OCD, I developed a fear of having false memories and remembering things that aren't true. Consequently, there have been about 5-10 other times in the past 2 years where I've thought I remembered things that didn't happen. Again, nothing bizarre, but the most extreme one happened the day after I cancelled a therapy session and I had a sudden "memory" of receiving a letter from my therapy session asking why I cancelled therapy. As soon as I "remembered" this, I knew it hadn't happened but it still feel like a memory. Another couple of my memories I wasn't so sure on.
3. I rehearse and repeat conversations to myself a lot when I'm alone. I don't hear voices, but I'll do it out loud.
4. I have no friends, but I am close with my boyfriend and family. I don't really have a desire to have friends and find it hard to motivate myself to put effort forth to form friendships.

Do you think I am on the verge of becoming psychotic or is this just bad OCD?

No I dont think you are.

[12AM]

Your first sentence had answered your own question in my opinion, your obsessive thoughts caused you worry that you have psychosis or schizophrenia, while in fact you, don't. You are not the first person with OCD who thinks they have psychosis btw, nor the first time you are obsess about having psychosis (I remember you post similiar question few months back). Make sure to mention this to your psychiatrist especially if you think your OCD is getting more severe

[88Butterfly88]

I think it's just OCD too.